1.Hate My Birthday

It's my birthday
I guess I should feel glad
But each year I feel more sad
And as I'm old enough
Don't need to hide behind a mask

Well I hate every time of year
But especially this one is full of fear
As always I'm going to end up in tears
Cause I have to keep it real
Well I hate my birthday it's clear

Don't want useless presents
They make me feel guilt
When I know that I can't give
I don't really need anything
Just my loneliness and peace
Not even cakes and sweets

Well I hate every time of year
But especially this one is full of fear
As always I'm going to end up in tears
Cause I have to keep it real
Well I hate my birthday it's clear

You try to make me laugh
And I'm grateful for that
But I don't celebrate
Don't really have the strength

Well I hate every time of year
But especially this one is full of fear
As always I'm going to end up in tears
Cause I have to keep it real
Well I hate my birthday it's clear

2.Sincere

Listen to me girl
With name that starts with M
They don't want you here
You'd better disappear...

There's no need to pretend
You are your only friend
Don't ever speak again
Just learn to play dead...

It's now pretty clear
You're feeding your own fear
No one likes to hear
Everyone hates you dear
When you are that sincere...

Let's fill your soul with grief
Because you live your dream
Don't worry,you'll never make it big
Don't destroy what they think...

You look so very proud
They have to bring you down
You're voice is way too loud
You've got to close your mouth...

Your talents have always been
The only ones that will never leave
And when you're feeling weak
These are the things that keeping you breathe...

3.Life’s A Thriller

I keep dreaming the same dream
That so gracefully I leave
From all the negativity and grief
And I'm the happiest I can be

But then I wake up and see
That this is not what's meant to be
And there is no good indeed
Cause there's nothing out there for me...

I'm seriously starting to believe
That there's something so wrong with me
I can't find joy in anything

Can't deal with the pain
Of always feeling sick and afraid
Here sleeping all day,literally or awake
Avoiding interaction with the human race

I'm seriously starting to believe
That there's something so wrong with me
I can't find joy in anything


I don't want to be a part
Of this idiocy
Of this social hypocrisy
I need to get away
Before it'll affects my brain


I'm seriously starting to believe
That there's something so wrong with me
I can't find joy in anything


And life's a thriller not a gift...

4.Education

I'm sure this time it's over
I'll give an end to this meaningless life
They won't manipulate my dreams anymore
Going to make my choices alone...


I don't care for the consequences
Just want to be happy
All these unlucky circumstances
They cannot stop me
This education is so wrong
It doesn't offer me anything


So what if they reject me
They keep trying to offend me
I've never done anyone's favour
To conform with their expectations
This decision's my only saviour
Tired of being one of their obsessions...


I don't care for the consequences
Just want to be happy
All these unlucky circumstances
They cannot stop me
This education is so wrong
It doesn't offer me anything


And I will suffer the consequences
I'm not afraid as they thought
Can't stand the circumstances
My one true target it seems I forgot...


I don't care for the consequences
Just want to be happy
All these unlucky circumstances
They cannot stop me
This education is so wrong
It doesn't offer me anything

5.Unknown Black Future

I don't know where I'll be living next year
I don't know If I'll ever get to work here
Not sure if I'll can afford my life
And most efforts seem a waste of time...

One day we're all going to die
So what's the use of collecting things
It's so pointless with each other to fight
If only we could make some peace...

Thinking of throwing some things away
Cause they're really not helping me in any way
For the unknown black future I'm mostly afraid
To become an adult don't have the strength

One day we're all going to die
So what's the use of collecting things
It's so pointless with each other to fight
If only we could make some peace...

Nothing has ever brought a change
Having these perspectives since first grade
I don't want to be a fake
Pretending that everything's OK
So I keep grieving my fate
Which is not really that bad
But it still makes me sad

One day we're all going to die
So what's the use of collecting things
It's so pointless with each other to fight
If only we could make some peace...

I know you probably think
There's something wrong with me
Cause I can't really feel complete
No matter how I strive to be...

6.The Problem Is Still Going On

There are some neighbours on the next door
They're disappointed with themselves
And I should play their role
They like to argue if I'm good or not
Cause they can do nothing at all
Unlike me,that with this gift I was born
And with a little practice
It's more strong

It's happening all the time
And it's costing me precious life
They need my attention desperately
And annoying me constantly
They can't admit that they're in love with me

They're inviting others in their room
To try and blur the truth
They're always angry with who
They don't agree and they're trying to
Make them hate me too

It's happening all the time
And it's costing me precious life
They need my attention desperately
And annoying me constantly
They can't admit that they're in love with me


So you see that now everyone hates me
Cause I have something they want
But unfortunately they don't got
So I should pay for my sin of being talented

It's happening all the time
And it's costing me precious life
They need my attention desperately
And annoying me constantly
They can't admit that they're in love with me

I'm moving from place to place
From town to town
And from house to house
But the problem is still going on...

7.Can’t Control My Thoughts

Heavy head
Blurry eyesight
Trembling hands
Numb legs
Filled with tears eyes...

Weakness to face this life
Difficult to be alive
Don't give up this time
Just wake up and fight
You're not going to die
Don't make yourself cry

People around they just
Don't understand
They all think I'm sad
They fail to make me laugh
Don't want to be in their squad...

Weakness to face this life
Difficult to be alive
Don't give up this time
Just wake up and fight
You're not going to die
Don't make yourself cry

I feel way better alone
At least I don't have to play a role
I'd rather be artistic and real
Than fake and superficial
I can't control my thoughts...

Weakness to face this life
Difficult to be alive
Don't give up this time
Just wake up and fight
You're not going to die
Don't make yourself cry

8.Repeatedly

I fear it's coming my way
It's hard to throw it away
Who will take the blame
I won't play this game...

I don't know when this happened to me
But I have to make it stop before I leave
I prefer to not feel a thing
Than having these thoughts repeatedly...

In my head there's only fear
I didn't really want to be here
My target I have to make clear
Can't waste another year...

I don't know when this happened to me
But I have to make it stop before I leave
I prefer to not feel a thing
Than having these thoughts repeatedly..

This feeling is exhausting
It's starting to get annoying
I'm more ashamed when it's showing
Trying to convince myself to keep going...

I don't know when this happened to me
But I have to make it stop before I leave
I prefer to not feel a thing
Than having these thoughts repeatedly..


Panic attacks keep coming back
I can't make it stop
I don't really suffer from that
It's all in my head but it's getting bad...


9.Stop Copying Me

Seems like I have more enemies now
Than I thought I already had
But I don't really see them that way
They started acting like that

I don't know what they want
And no one else does
Cause nobody cares about them
They're living in the shadow of my back...

I'm sorry that you failed
And you need to take it out on me
Well wrong,I'm not sorry
You should only be
Your mind is weak
No capacity, no shame and no guilt ...
Stop copying me!

Me and my sister
We've got a thing called inspiration
Which you'll never have
Cause we were born with talent and intelligence
Values you don't and you will never match...

So we would really appreciate
If you'd leave us alone
Don't even think to steal our role
Such a pity you can do nothing on your own
Don't copy others who actually work...

I'm sorry that you failed
And you need to take it out on me
Well wrong,I'm not sorry
You should only be
Your mind is weak
No capacity, no shame and no guilt ...
Stop copying me!

You want to vanish me and take my place
But that will never happen anyway
You can curse me,hate me,bully me and that's OK
But only me will win this game...

And don't lie about your age
You're much older than me
You'll never be like me
You'll never be me!

I'm sorry that you failed
And you need to take it out on me
Well wrong,I'm not sorry
You should only be
Your mind is weak
No capacity, no shame and no guilt ...
Stop copying me!