1. PRELUDE 12/21


This is what I brought you, this you can keep.
This is what I brought, you may forget me.
I promise to depart, just promise one thing.
Kiss my eyes and lay me to sleep.

This is what I brought you, this you can keep.
This is what I brought, you may forget me.
I promise you my heart just promise to sing.
Kiss my eyes and lay me to sleep.

Whoa, Whoa, Whoa, Whoa, Whoa, Whoa
(Whoa, Whoa)
Kiss my eyes and lay me to sleep.

This is what I thought, I thought you’d need me.
This is what I thought, so think me naive
I'd promised you a heart, you'd promise to keep.
Kiss my eyes and lay me to sleep.


`Kiss my eyes and lay me to sleep.`




2. GIRLS NOT GREY

I'll lay me down tonight,
Much further down.
Swim in the calm tonight.
This art does drown.

(What follows)me as the whitest lace of light,
(will swallow whole)just begs to be and brood?
(What follows)has led me to this place where I belong with all erased?
What follows?

All insects sing tonight, the coldest sound.
I'd send Gods grace tonight,
Could it be found?

(What follows)
Me as the whitest lace of light
(Will swallow whole)
Just begs to be and brood?
(What follows)has led me to this place, where I belong with all erased?

I'll lay me down tonight,
Much further down.
Watch stars go out tonight.
On sinking ground.

I'll lay me down.
I'll lay me down.

(What follows)me as the whitest lace of light
(Will swallow whole)
Just begs to be and brood?
What follows,(Whoooaa) has led me to this place where I belong with all erased?

What follows
Will swallow whole
What Follows
Will swallow whole



3. THE LEAVING SONG PT. II

Walked away, heard them say
"Poison hearts will never change, walk away again"
Turned away in disgrace
Felt the chill upon my face cooling from within

It's hard to notice gleaming from the sky
When you're staring at the cracks
It's hard to notice what is passing by with eyes lowered

You... walked away, heard them say
"Poisoned hearts will never change, walk away again"

All the cracks, they lead right to me
And all the cracks will crawl right through me
All the cracks, they lead right to me
And all the cracks will crawl right through me, and I fell apart

As I... walked away, heard them say
"Poisoned hearts will never change"
Walked away again
Turned away in disgrace
Felt the chill upon my face cooling from within


4. SUMMER SHUDDER

Listen when I say,
When I say it's real.
Real life goes undefined,
Why must you be so missable?

Everything you take,
Makes me more unreal.
Real lines are undefined.
How can this be so miserable?

Under the summer rain, I burnt away.
Under the summer rain (Burn!)
You turned away.

Listen I can't make.
Make a sound or feel.
Feel fine I kissed the lies,
Why must they be so kissable?
Listen as I break.
Break the fourth wall's seal.
Gorgeous eyes shine suicide
When will we be invisible?

Under the summer rain, I burnt away.
Under the summer rain (Burn!)
We find a way.
Under the summer rain, I burnt away.
Under the summer rain (Burn!)
You turned away.

This is the fall,
This is the long way down.
And our lives look smaller now,
And our lives look so small.
Willingly crying.

This is the fall,
This is the long way down.
And our lives look smaller now,
And our lives look so small.

Under the summer rain, I burnt away.
Under the summer rain (Burn!)
We find a way.

Under the summer rain, I burnt away.
Under the summer rain (Burn!)
We find a way.

Under the summer rain (Burn!)
I burnt away.
Under the summer rain (Burn!)
You turned away...


5. KILL CAUSTIC

So I'm feeling much worse now
You're better, you're better
Your designer drug
Won't work, won't work for me.

Connect to a three volt
I hope your battery dies.
How could you run on such, on such voltage?

All the same
I remain
The one you blame and I'm

Demonized
Purified
Justified
As you let yourself show!

So now you'll love these screams
What's left of me. (Don't! Speak!)
Love these screams like I do (My! Name!)

As the infinite stops cold
Just nine and the six are gone
Guess I was the one to
Ride that dirty ride

That is turning so fast now
I cannot hold on
But at this pace
Who'd want, who'd want to

All the same
I remain
The one you blame and I'm

Demonized
Purified
Justified
As you let yourself show!

So now you'll love these screams
What's left of me. (Don't! Speak!)
Love these screams like I do (My! Name!)

Don't ever speak my name

Don't ever speak my name again
Don't ever speak it
Don't ever speak my name again
Don't speak
Don't speak

DON'T
SPEAK
MY
DON'T SPEAK MY NAME!

So now you'll love these screams
What's left of me. (Don't! Speak!)
Love these screams like I do (Why)


6. THE DAYS OF THE PHOENIX

I remember when I was told a story of
crushed velvet, candle wax, and dried up flowers.
The figure on the bed,
all dressed up in roses, calling...
beckoning to sleep...offering a dream.

The words were as mystical as purring animals
The circle of rage...the ghosts on the stage appeared.
The time was so tangible I'll never let it go.
Ghost stories handed down, reached secret tunnels below.

No one could see me.

I fell into yesterday.
Our dreams seemed not far away.
I want to, I want to, I want to stay
I fell into fantasy.

The words were as mystical as purring animals.
The circle of rage...the ghosts on the stage appeared.
The time was so tangible, I'll never let it go.
Ghost stories handed down, reached secret tunnels below.

No one could see me.

I fell into yesterday.
Our dreams seemed not far away.
I want to, I want to, I want to stay.
I fell into fantasy.


The girl on the wall always waited for me
and she was always smiling.
The teenage death boys, the teenage death girls...
and everyone was dancing.
Nothing could touch us then,
no one could change us then, and everyone was dancing.
Nothing could hurt us then, no one could see us then,
and everyone was dancing.
Everyone was dancing.

No one could see me.

I fell into yesterday.
Our dreams seemed not far away.
I want to, I want to, I want to stay
I fell into fantasy.

Our dreams seemed not far away.
Our dreams seemed not far away.
Our dreams seemed not far away.

I fell into fantasy.


7. ENDLESSLY, SHE SAID

[Whispering]

Walked into our world and made
Horrible sounds.
I can still hear them today
(strangely they seem)
Beautiful now,
though they outlast my love.

Still each time I always meant,
Every word,
Every one.
Though in time they finally bent,
Every word,
Every one.

Every word.

"I will wait for you." She said,
Endlessly.
"I will wait for you." So spoke,
Misery.

I returned to you but found,
My empty home.
The radio told me to stay.
As it burned down
I sang alone.
You will outlast my love.

Still each time I always meant,
Every word,
Every one.
Though in time they finally bent,
Every word,
Every one.

Every word.

"I will wait for you." She said,
Endlessly.
"I will wait for you." So spoke,
Misery.

Oh.

I have been waiting for you,
Biting as you taught me to.
I have come to relieve you,
Of life and love.

I will wait for you.
I will wait for you.
I will wait for you.

I will wait.

I will wait.

"I will wait for you." She said,
Endlessly.
"I will wait for you." So spoke,
Misery.

"I will wait for you"
Wait for you,
Endlessly.

"I will wait for you."
So spoke.

So spoke,
Misery.

I will bite straight through.
As I wait for you
Dear,
Endlessly.




8. A SINGLE SECOND

Oh my God! My God this can't be happening!
God tell me, tell me this isn't real!
I can't believe all that I have
foreseen is finally happening.
I cannot for a single second stand the way I feel.
I always knew. I always saw it coming.
Enveloped now, encased by my worst fear.
I've never felt the nausea of longing to feel nothing,
I never wanted to cease to
exist, just disappear. Fear memories are all that lie ahead.
Never have I felt so lost. Memories dull my senses.
Fear tragedy is all that lies ahead.
Never have I felt so dead.
Once felt so warm, now I'm fucking freezing.
I am the once embraced abandoned one.
I raised my eyes up to the light in hopes of finding healing;
no relief was mine, I was burnt, by the sun.





9.TEH MISSING FRAME

One at a time, constants become surreal
One at a time, heart attacks are consealed
I can see that I lose the joys of life,
One at a time.
Suicides are revealed
You will see that I lost another life

But tonight

I'll let you tear it up,
If you don't wake me up.
But if you tear it, We can't repair it.
So please don't wake me,
Til someone cares.
Now no one cares.

One at a time, I watch them all forget
One at a time, I'm lost in little deaths.
It's the place that I, I forget my life.

like tonight.

I'll let you tear it up,
If you don't wake me up.
But if you tear it, We can't repair it.
So please don't wake me,
Til someone cares.
Now no one cares

Will the flood behind me,
Put out the fire inside me,
Will the flood behind me,
Put out the fire inside me,

I'll let you tear it up,
I'll let you break it up,
If you don't wake me up.
But if you tear it, We can't repair it.
So please don't wake me,
Til someone cares.
Now no one cares.
Cares,

Oh!

I'll let you tear it up
If you dont wake me up
Cause its apparent
That you dont care and
It sunk into me
Cause I Don't care
Now no one cares.




10. BLEED BLACK

I am exploring the inside, I find it desolate
I do implore these confines, now, as they penetrate, "recreate me"
I'm hovering throughout time, I crumble in these days
I crumble, I cannot, I cannot find reflection in these days

(If you listen) Listen, listen
(Listen close) Beat by beat
(You can hear when the heart stops) I saved the pieces
(When it broke) And ground them all to dust

I am destroyed by the inside, I disassociate
I hope to destroy the outside, it will alleviate and elevate me
Like water flowing into lungs, I'm flowing through these days
Like morphine cuts through, through dead end veins, I'm numbing in these days
So...

(If you listen) Listen, listen
(Listen close) Beat by beat
(You can hear when the heart stops) I saved the pieces
(When it broke) And ground them all to dust

I know what died that night, it can never be brought back to life
Once again, I know
[x2]

I know I died that night and I'll never be brought back to life
Once again, I know
[x2]

(If you listen) Listen, listen
(Listen close) Beat by beat
(You can hear when the heart stops) I saved the pieces
(When it broke) And ground them all to dust
So...

(If you listen) Listen, listen
(Listen close) It dies beat by beat
(You can hear when the heart stops) I saved the pieces
(When it broke) And ground them all to dust



11. SILVER AND COLD

I... I came here by day, but I left here in darkness
And found you, found you on the way
And now, it is silver and silent, it is silver and cold
You, in somber resplendence, I hold

Your sins into me
Oh, my beautiful one
Your sins into me
As a rapturous voice escapes, I will tremble a prayer
And I'll beg for forgiveness
(Your sins into me) Your sins into me
Oh, my beautiful one

Light, like the flutter of wings, feel your hollow voice rushing into me
As you're longing to sing
So I... I will paint you in silver, I will wrap you in cold
I will lift up your voice as I sink

Your sins into me
Oh, my beautiful one, now
Your sins into me
As a rapturous voice escapes, I will tremble a prayer
And I'll beg for forgiveness
(Your sins into me) Your sins into me

Cold in life's throes, I'll fall asleep for you
Cold in life's throes, I only ask you turn away
Cold in life's throes, I'll fall asleep for you
Cold in life's throes, I only ask you turn
As they seep... into me, oh, my beautiful one, now

Your sins into me
Oh, my beautiful one
Your sins into me
As a rapturous voice escapes, I will tremble a prayer
And I'll beg for forgiveness
(Your sins into me)
Your sins into me... oh

Your sins into me
Oh, my beautiful one, now
Your sins into me
As a rapturous voice escapes, I will tremble a prayer
And I'll beg for forgiveness
(Your sins into me) Your sins into...
(Your sins into me) Your sins into me
Oh, my beautiful one


12. DANCING THROUGH SUNDAY

Will you join me in this dance, this dance of misery
Cradled in imposs... impossibility?
Swooning, I am swept away
Swept off my feet, with step by step by step, we take the lead
As drop by drop, we start to bleed
Oh, we dance in misery
(And we dance on, and we dance on)
Oh, we dance in misery
(lost in the arms of our misery, oh)
Oh, we dance in misery
(And we dance on, and we dance on)
Swept off our feet by our misery, we're swept into the shadows

Will you lend yourself to beauty that will horrify?
Let me hide within your black, the still inside your eyes
Deafened, caught within a cry
So sensual, as step by step by step, I seperate
As breath to breath, as I... suffocate

(Oh, we dance in misery)
And we dance on, and we dance on
(Oh, we dance in misery)
lost in the arms of our misery, oh
(Oh, we dance in misery)
And we dance on, and we dance on
Swept off our feet by our misery, we're swept into the shadows

So who will follow? Who is the lead?
I know I'll leave a stain, because I bleed
As we dance, we all dance
We all... have no chance in this horrid romance

I swear....

(Oh, we dance in misery)
And we dance on, and we dance on
(Oh, we dance in misery)
All lost in the arms of our misery, oh
(Oh, we dance in misery)
And we dance on, and we dance on
Swept off our feet by our misery, we're swept in the shadows
Swept off our feet by our misery, we're swept in the shadows




13.THIS TIME IMPERFECT

I cannot leave here, I cannot stay
Forever haunted, more than afraid
Asphyxiate on words I would say
I'm drawn to a blackened sky as I turn blue

There are no flowers, no, not this time
There will be no angels gracing the lines, just these stark words I find
I'd show a smile but I'm too weak
I'd share for you, could I only speak, just how much this hurts me

I cannot stay here, I cannot leave
Just like all I loved, I'm make believe
Imagined heart, I disappear
Seems... no one will appear here and make me real

There are no flowers, no, not this time
There will be no angels gracing the lines, just these stark words I find
I'd show a smile but I'm too weak
I'd share with you, could I only speak, just how much this hurts me

I'd tell you how it haunts me
I'd tell you how it haunts me
Cuts through my day and sinks into my dreams
I'd tell you how it haunts me
Cuts through my day and sinks into my dreams
You don't care that it haunts me

There are no flowers, no, not this time
There will be no angels gracing the lines, just these stark words I find
I'd show a smile but I'm too weak
I'd share with you, could I only speak, just how much this hurts me
Just how much this hurts me
Just how much you...




14.DEATH OF SEASONS

Of late, it's harder just to go outside
To leave this deadspace with hatred, so alive.
Writhing with sickness, thrown into banality, I decay
Killed by the weakness, but forced to return. Turn it off.

I watch the stars as they fall from the sky.
I held a fallen star and it wept for me, dying.
I feel the fallen stars encircle me, now as they cry.

Out there so quickly grows malignant tribes.
Posthuman extinction excels, unrecognized.
Feeling surrounded. So bored with mortality, I decay.
All of this hatred is fucking real. Turn it on... yeah!

I watch the stars as they fall from the sky.
I held a fallen star and it wept for me, dying.
I feel the fallen stars encircle me, now as they cry.

It won't be all right, despite what they say.
Just watch the stars tonight as they, as they disappear, disintegrate.
And I disintegrate, 'cause this hate is fucking real.
And I hope to shade the world, as stars go out and I disintegrate.

...Will not be alright...
...Despite what they say...
...Just watch the sky...
...AS STARS GO OUT...



15.TOTAL IMMORTAL

Hope unknown. Sometimes just waking is surreal.
I'll pass right through the nameless ones.
I know that hope's unknown.
Sometimes the water feels so real.
As I walk through it fills my lungs, my god, I'm drowning.

This day never seems to end.
This pain, never.
This day never seems to end.
This rage I can not let go.

I hear them calling.
I feel them gnawing out holes
all through out our flawless souls.

I hear them calling.
I feel them gnawing out holes
all through out my flawless soul.


So alone.
Sometimes I swear that I can hear the taunting of the voiceless ones.
I fear that I alone fear those who finally ceased to feel,
That they're alone inside this place.
I am the misplaced.

This day never seems to end.
This pain, never.
This day never seems to end.
This rage I can not let go.

I hear them calling.
I feel them gnawing out holes
all through out our flawless souls.

I hear them calling.
I feel them gnawing out holes
all through out my flawless soul.

Now every face, it looks familiar...
Then every face would melt away until...
Now everyone, do you know, I know your deception?

I hear them calling.
I feel them gnawing out holes
all through out our flawless souls

I hear them calling.
I feel them gnawing out holes
all through out my flawless soul.




16. LOVE LIKE WINTER


Warn your warmth to turn away,
Here it's December,
Everyday. [small girlish echo:] I like that

Press your lips to the sculptures,
And surely you'll stay. [distant:] love like winter

For of sugar and ice,
I am made. I am made

It's in the blood,
It's in the blood.
I met my love before I was born.
He wanted love,
I taste of blood.
He bit my lip, and drank my warmth,
From years before, from years before.

She exhales vanilla lace,
I barely dreamt her, yesterday. [echo:] yesterday
Read the lines in the mirror through,
The lipstick trace.
Por siempre

She said "It seems you're somewhere, far away" to his face.

It's in the blood,
It's in the blood.
I met my love before I was born.
She wanted love,
I taste of blood.
She bit my lip, and drank my warmth,
From years before, from years before.

Love Like Winter.

Love Like Winter.

Winter.
Three, four

It's in the blood,
It's in the blood.
I met my love before I was born.
He wanted love,
I taste of blood.
He bit my lip, and drank my warmth,
From years before, from years before.
From years before.



17. GOD CALLED IN SICK TODAY

Let's admire the pattern forming
Murderous filigree
I'm caught in the twisting of the vine
Go ascend with ivy, climbing
Ignore and leave for me
The headstone crumbling behind

I can't help my laughter as she cries
My soul brings tears to angelic eyes

Let's amend the classic story
Close it so beautifully
I'll let animosity unwind
Steal away the darkened pages
Hidden so shamefully
I'll still feel the violence of the lines

I can't stand my laughter as they cry
My soul brings tears to angelic eyes

And miles away my mother cried
Omnipotence, nurturing malevolence

I can't stand my laughter as they cry
My soul brings tears to angelic eyes

And miles away my mother cried
Omnipotence, nurturing malevolence


18. MISS MURDER

Hey Miss Murder can I?
Hey Miss Murder can I?
Make beauty stay if I,
Take my life?

Whoa-oh-ohh

With just a look they shook
And heavens bowed before him.
Simply a look can break your heart.
The stars that pierce the sky;
He left them all behind.
We’re left to wonder why
He left us all behind.

Hey Miss Murder can I?
Hey Miss Murder can I?
Make beauty stay if I,
Take my life?
Whoa-oh-ohh
(ohh)

Dreams of his crash won’t pass
Oh, how they all adored him
Beauty will last when spiraled down.
The stars that mystify
He left them all behind.
And how his children cried
He left us all behind.

Hey Miss Murder can I?
Hey Miss Murder can I?
Make beauty stay if I,
Take my life?
Whoa-oh-ohh

What's the hook, the twist
Within this verbose mystery?
I would gladly bet my life upon it.
That the ghost you love, your ray of light
Will fizzle out without hope.
We're the empty set just floating through, wrapped in skin
Ever searching for what we were promised.
Reaching for that golden ring we'd never let go,
but who would ever let us put put our filthy hands upon it?

Hey Miss Murder can I?
Hey Miss Murder can I?
Make beauty stay if I,
Take my life?
Whoa-oh-ohh

Hey Miss Murder can I?
Hey Miss Murder can I?
Make beauty stay if I,
Take my life?
Whoa-oh-ohh