1. YOU MAKE ME SMILE

There's some kind of light at the end
When touching the edge of her skin

Once so hard to speak
Now so easy to play around
Catching that eye you know
That eye that slaps you in your face
And calls you a puppy
Well, how do you say I was hypnotized?
Hypnotized

My words, they pour
Like children to the playground
Children to the playground
You make me smile

Chorus:

There's some kind of light at the end
Stoned, forgetful, and thin
I'm drinking what used to be sin
And touching the edge of her skin

Could you be the one that's not afraid
To look me in the eye
I swear I would collapse if I would tell
How I think you fell from the sky

My words, they pour
Like children to the playground
Children to the playground
You make me smile

Chorus:

There's some kind of light at the end
Stoned, forgetful, and thin
I'm drinking what used to be sin
And touching the edge of her skin
There's some kind of light at the end
Stoned, forgetful, and thin
I'm drinking what used to be sin
And touching the edge of her skin

It's the feeling I get,
my palms with sweat
Like some kind of daydream I'll never forget
I'm stuck in this spin, where does it begin?
When touching the edge of her skin

Chorus:

There's ome kind of light at the end
Stoned, forgetful, and thin
I'm drinking what used to be sin
And touching the edge of her skin

2. SHE'S MY RIDE HOME

We talked
Together sharpening a knife
Like killing partners for a life
Hey, we can hide the bodies on the ride home
Now here we are
We're licking skin to wipe us clean
Strike a match, pour gasoline
Ditch the scene and watch the city burn
Asleep my lap will be a pillow steering-wheel turn

Chorus:

I'll be reaching for the stars with you, honey
Who cares no-one else believes
So I set fire to everyone around but you
(I told you) I told you we'd do it
So ha ha ha ha, ha ha ha yeah, we won

We drive
To leave the past and clear the mind
To watch the sunset at its time
I swear you're fine, I'm your ride home
Now close your eyes
It's getting dark and the highway's clear
No sign of life from front to rear
It's just you, my dear, on the ride home
We're going home

Chorus:

I'll be reaching for the stars with you, honey
Who cares no-one else believes
So I set fire to everyone around but you
(I told you) I told you we'd do it
So ha ha ha ha, ha ha ha yeah, we won

We talked
Together sharpening a knife
Like killing partners for a life
Hey, we can hide the bodies on the ride home
Cause we're going home

Chorus:

I'll be reaching for the stars with you, honey
Who cares no-one else believes
So I set fire to everyone around but you
(I told you) I told you we'd do it
So ha ha ha ha (we won)

3. INTO THE OCEAN

I'm just a normal boy
That sank when I fell overboard
My ship would leave the country
But I'd rather swim ashore
Without a life that's sadly stuck again
Wish shy was much more masculine
Maybe then I could learn to swim
Like (fourteen miles away)
Now floating up and down
I spin, colliding into sound
Like whales beneath be diving down
I'm sinking to the bottom of my
Everything that freaks me out
The lighthouse beam has just run out
I'm cold as cold as cold can be, be

Chorus:

I wanna swim away, but don't know how
Sometimes it feels just like I'm falling in the ocean
Let the waves up, take me down
Let the hurricane set in motion
Let the rain of what I feel right now come down
Let the rain come down

Where is the coastguard?
I keep looking each direction
For a spotlight, give me something
I need something for protection
Maybe flotsam junk will do just fine
The jets, I'm sunk, I'm left behind
I'm treading for my life, believe me
How can I keep up this breathing?
Not knowing how to think
I scream aloud, begin to sink
My legs and arms are broken down
With envy for the solid ground
I'm reaching for the life within me
How can one man stop his ending?
I thought of just your face
Relaxed and floated into space

Chorus:

I wanna swim away, but don't know how
Sometimes it feels just like I'm falling in the ocean
Let the waves up, take me down
Let the hurricane set in motion
Let the rain of what I feel right now come down
Let the rain come down

Now waking to the sun
I calculate what I had done
Like jumping from the bow, yeah
Just to prove that I knew how, yeah
It's midnight's late reminder of
The loss of her, the one I love
My will to quickly end it all
Set front row in my need to fall
Into the ocean, end it all
Into the ocean, end it all
Into the ocean, end it all

Chorus:

I wanna swim away, but I don't know how
Sometimes it feels just like I'm falling in the ocean
Let the waves up, take me down
Let the hurricane set in motion
Let the rain of what I feel right now come down
Let the rain come down

(Into the ocean, end it all) into space
(Into the ocean, end it all) goodbye, goodbye
(Into the ocean, end it all) goodbye, goodbye
(Into the ocean, end it all) goodbye, goodbye
I thought of just your face

4. WHAT IF WE COULD

What if we could
Put our lives on
Hold and meet some
Where inside of the world
I would meet you
Would you meet me? (two, three, four)

On a park bench
On a skyscrape
On a mountain
Oh yeah, whatever it takes
I would meet you
Would you meet me?

Chorus:

I'm glad to say that we met
I'm sad to say that the circumstances weren't
On our side
So go on, go on be your own
Go on be your own star

What if we could
Where would we go?
And if it felt right
Would you want me to know?
I would meet you
Would you meet me? (two, three, four)

Yeah, yeah, it's like a last chance
For a first dance
You're a sunrise
God, somehow exist
I would you meet
Would you meet me?

Chorus:

I'm glad to say that we met
I'm sad to say that the circumstances weren't
On our side
So go on, go on be your own
Go on be your own star

You're a superstar in my eyes
In my eyes
Look in my eyes
Just look in my eyes
My eyes, my eyes

What if we could
Put our lives on
Hold and meet some
Where inside of the world
I would meet you
Would you meet me? (two, three, four)

On a park bench
On a skyscrape
On a mountain
Oh yeah, whatever it takes
I would meet you
Would you meet me? (two, three, four)

5. HATE ME

Message on answering machine:
Hi Justin!This is your mother. I was just calling to see how you were doing. You sounded really uptight last night, it made me a little nervous. I just want to make sure you are really okay and wanted to see if you were checking in on your medication too. You know I love ya. See ya! Bye Bye!

I have to block out thoughts of you
so I don't lose my head
They crawl in like a cockroach
leaving babies in my bed
Dropping little reels of tape
to remind me that I'm alone
Playing movies in my head
that make a porno feel like home
There's a burning in my pride,
a nervous bleeding in my brain
An ounce of peace is all I want for you.
Will you never call again?
And will you never say that you love me
just to put it in my face?
And will you never try to reach me?
It is I that wanted space!

Hate me today
Hate me tomorrow
Hate me for all the things, I didn't do for you!

Hate me in ways
In ways hard to swallow
Hate me so you can finally see
what's good for you

I'm sober now for 3 whole months
it's one accomplishment
that you helped me with
The one thing that always tore us apart
is the one thing I won't touch again
In a sick way I want to thank you
for holding my head up late at night
While I was busy waging wars on myself,
you were trying to stop the fight
You never doubted my warped opinions
on things like suicidal hate
You made me compliment myself
when it was way too hard to take
So I'll drive so fucking far away
that I never cross your mind
And do whatever it takes in your heart
to leave me behind

Hate me today
Hate me tomorrow
Hate me for all the things I didn't do for you

Hate me in ways
Yeah ways hard to swallow
Hate me so you can finally see
what's good for you

And with a sad heart I say bye
to you and wave
Kicking shadows on the street
for every mistake that I had made
And like a baby boy
I never was a man
Until I saw your blue eyes crying
and I held your face in my hand
And then I fell down yelling “make it go away!”
Just make a smile come back
and shine just like it used to be
And then she whispered
“How can you do this to me?”

Hate me today
Hate me tomorrow
Hate me for all the things I didn't do for you

Hate me in ways
Yeah ways hard to swallow
Hate me so you can finally see
what's good for you

6. LET IT GO

Where do you go
When my day is long
And where does your heart beat
And who is wrong?
Why do I feel this way?
Why do I kneel?
How could I let it go?
Why do I feel?
Why do I feel?
Why?

Follow me home
Through the, the maze and on
I'll show you the road
That I led you the wrong way on
Why did I go that way?
Why do I steal?
How I could let her go?
Why do I feel?
Oh, why did I go that way?
And why do I steal?
How could I let her go?
Why do I feel?
Why do I feel?
Why?

How could I (why)
How could I

7. CONGRATULATIONS

Is that seat taken? congratulations
Would you like to take a walk with me?
My mind it kind of goes fast
I'll try to slow it down for you
I think I'd love to take a drive
I want to give you something
I've been wanting to give to you for years
My heart

Chorus:

My heart, my pain won't cover up
You left me, ah ha ha ha (my heart)
My heart can't take this cover up
You left me

I came to see the light in my best friend
You seemed as happy as you'd ever been
My chance of being open was broken
And now you're Mrs. Him
My words they don't come out right
But I'll try to say I'm happy for you
I think I'm gonna take that drive
I wanted to give you something
I've been wanting to give to you for years
My heart

Chorus:

Go away
Make it go away
Please

8. OVERWEIGHT

Ever carried the weight of another?
For how long?
I walk as far as they need to recover
For how long? (ha!)

I want to carry a piece of who I was before
So when I hit the wall, I really hit the wall
I want to tear away the death again
A whiter shade of fucking meth again
I want to stick to clues, I want to come unglued
I want to shape the world to fit the way you move
Oh, should I listen for a dress size?

I owned up, I've grown up, do you remember me?
I showed up and so what if I'm the used to be
I'm here to tell you that I'm sorry I was sorry
But I'm happy that you're happiness is no longer about me

Trade rules, switch sides for your beautiful eyes
Let him be you through your beautiful cries
Let him hold you up so you can touch affordable skies
Live your life just like a dream
Without the pain of goodbyes
Goodbye!

Ever carried the weight of another?
For how long?
I walk as far as they need to recover
For how long?

I been a drunk disrespectful little street punk
Unlock the back of my trunk
You see, you take this bat
And bash my head into the street again
No-ones around so I keep beating it

Pull my hair back, look me in the eye
There's a self-destructive meaning in the bleeding of a guy
It's the guilt of what reality has given me
Making sense of all mistakes and my stupidity
And when you're sick you seem to think
You've failed eternally

And that the people you let in are only crumbling
When you're sick of thinking life in this recovery
When my decision paved the road
That lies in front of me

So to my friends that even call but I don't call back
I want you deep inside my heart upon a hill
It seems to hide sometimes and run away and wonder
I'm really sick of saying sorry but I will

Ever carried the weight of another?
For how long?
I walk as far as they need to recover
For how long?

But are we scared to take the ride?
Or dare to look inside?
I'm floating far away (far away)
I'm floating far away (leaving home)
I'm floating far away (so far away)
I'm floating far away

I want to learn to walk with others as an equal
I want to treat the ones who love me with respect
I want to tell the world I'll give them all a piggyback
And try to take away my negative effect
I want to kiss the girl, I know I'll never lie again
I want to call my dad and tell him that I care
I want to let my brother know
He saved my life a thousand times
Throughout the years he's been my friend
Who's always there

Ever carried the weight of another?
For how long?

9. X-AMOUNT OF WORDS

Relapse prevent, trigger intent
Now drown, high strung say x amount of words
Your solar, bipolar panic disorder
Seems harder and harder and harder
Still you try to control it
You mold, you mold, yeah you shape to mold
Boy, you're bold, you're bold, but your shape is bold
You're a symptom superficial
To what they call knowing you
Minus the speed, could you imagine the phobia?

Chorus:

Oh, we're recording
Oh, we're recording

Your brain has faulty wiring,
The reason for tiring
Keep treating the curse
Imagine the worst
Systematic, sympathetic,
Quite pathetic apologetic, paramedic
Your heart is prosthetic
A plate of quite peculiar
Oon a dish of my own
A tablespoon, a feather
Tickle me to the bone
Give me recipes for happy with the chemicals gone
Drinking freedom from a bottle to the tune of belong

Chorus:

Oh, we're recording (I only want to see)
Oh, we're recording, we're recording (I can't believe)
Oh, we're recording (I only want to see)
Oh, we're recording, we're recording (I can't believe)
Maybe (I only want to see)
Maybe (I only want to see)

I'm sick of shaking, never waking
From the hell I achieve
I never knew you till you left me
With the crying disease
Another curing, reassuring way to buckle the knees
So mistreated
I repeated
Nnever blessing your sneeze
Now deleted and defeated,
I will stand on my own
Yeah, your memory that punches me
Has broken a bone
Give me recipes for sorry,
I'm admitting I'm wrong
Still your memory that punches me
Has broken a bone

Chorus:

Oh, we're recording (I only want to see)
Oh, we're recording, we're recording (I can't believe)
Oh, we're recording (I only want to see)
Oh, we're recording, we're recording (I can't believe)
Maybe (I only want to see)
Maybe (I only want to see)
(Thank you very much, have a good night)
(Thanks so much)

10. DRILLED A WIRE THROUGH MY CHEEK

I try to stay on top of you
To hold your body down
Your shaking seems to hinder
Every grasp that I had found
Moving every inch around you
To diffuse your private bomb
I stretch myself surrounding
And protecting you from harm
I use a wallet for your mouth
So when you bite you will not bleed
I drilled a wire through my cheek
And let it down and out my sleeve
And now you're pulling out the best of me
Yeah, which never ever comes
This wire's all that's left of me
And it's hooked within my gums
Within my gums

Chorus:

So drill it, so drill it
So hard, I feel it (so carry on)
So drill it, so drill it
So hard, I feel it (yes, and carry on)

It's proof to show I bleed for this
I'd cut myself to shame
To get to know this masochist
Who's stolen my first name
Pretending he's a teacher
Holding all my weight at ease
Yet the teacher seems to split in two
Destroying both his knees
And now crawling I position myself
Below your broken wings
I lift your feathered left arm
Where you hide your heart from me
I never noticed it was swollen
With a touch of brutal pain
I never knew a heart could live inside
The rust from all your rain
All your rain

Chorus:

So drill it, so drill it
So hard, I feel it (so carry on)
So drill it, so drill it
So hard, I feel it (yes, and carry on)

I didn't think to bring a washcloth
All to rub away the dirt
Myself and I we share
This barely beating heart of hurt
And when the hurt comes there's an argument
A fight to save a smile
A small attack on human tears
To dry them for awhile
A dream we all should count on
Yeah, a vision I believe
And where confidence is found
Attached to wires on our sleeve
And where loneliness is history
Told to pack your shit and leave
And where guidance is a fortune
Told to help in time of need
And where crying isn't secret
It's the art of how we grieve
And lessons are the key
To every goal I will achieve
I will achieve

Chorus:

So drill it, so drill it
So hard, I feel it (so carry on)
So drill it, so drill it
So hard, I feel it (yes, and carry on)

11. SOUND OF PULLING HEAVEN DOWN

Somewhere far away from here
I saw stars, stars that I could reach, yeah
It was a midnight silent twilight
It fell down beyond the ocean beach, yeah

I assemble all the sand
That cover wedding beaches
To build a castle
So your mom would have a place to stay
Behind the waterslide
And down the hill where heaven reaches
Land and time is left to float away, yeah
So rest assured I have the key to every opening
To every wishing well that's deep enough to dream
I wanna show you just how fascinating kissing is
When earth collides with all the space between, yeah

Chorus:

I'm reaching farther than I ever have before
Leaving all who broke your heart upon the shore
I may be some sort of crazy
We may be some sort of crazy
But I swear on everything I have and more

So never look behind you
Spooky people bring you down
The world is ending
There's a party by the bay
I wear my suit and tie
We're eye to eye and toasting to
The way you put that smile upon my face, yeah
Fill up the air balloon and ride with me
Yeah, hell is jealous of the rain
Make love like time and space is
Ending while befriending fate's
Alluring way of putting this to shame

Chorus:

I'm reaching farther than I ever have before
Leaving all who broke your heart upon the shore
I may be some sort of crazy
We may be some sort of crazy
But I swear on everything I have and more

You make the sound of pulling heaven down
You brought the rain's romantic pour
You make the sound, you make the sound
Of pulling heaven down

12. EVERLASTING FRIEND

A heartbeat skip, relationship
Inside a bubble bath
An icing drip below your lip
So we undo the math
A sudden slip between
My pathetic sedatives
A real-life script of how
Mistakes became our medicine, so
Delay the hurtful words
Of complicated overcast
Please take the message that I'm
Picking up my chin at last
I said my confidence
It gets stronger when you're next to me
But we pray from miles away
In quest for what we long to be

Chorus:

I might crumble, I might take a fall again
I might crumble, I might take a fall again
But you're my everlasting friend

A heartbeat skip, relationship
So we would stay up late
A teardrop drip below your lip
Beside the airport gate
A sudden slip from where
We used to be a year ago
A real-life script of how
Our hands would hold and not let go
But delay the mournful words
Of complicated overcast
Please take the message
That you taught me how to live at last
But I said my confidence
It gets stronger when you're next to me
But we wave respect goodbye
In quest for what we long to be, but

Chorus:

I might crumble, I might take a fall again
I might crumble, I might take a fall again
(Still missing you)
But you're my everlasting friend

Will you be coming home?
(Everlasting friend)
My everlasting friend, will you be coming home?

13. 18TH FLOOR BALCONY

I close my eyes and I smile
Knowing that everything is all right
To the core, so close that door
Is this happening?
My breath is on your hair
I'm unaware that you opened the blinds
And let the city in
God, you held my hand, and we stand
Just taking in everything

Chorus:

And I knew it from the start
So my arms are open wide
Your head is on my stomach
And we're, we're trying so hard not to fall asleep
Here we are on this 18th floor balcony
We're both flying away

So we talk about moms and dads
About family pasts
Just getting to know where we came from
Our hearts were on display for all to see
I can't believe this is happening to me
And I raise my hand
As if to show you that I was yours
That I was so yours for the taking
I'm so yours for the taking and
That's when I felt the wind pick up
I grabbed the rail while choking up
These words to say and then you kissed me

Chorus:

Yeah, I knew it from the start
My arms are open wide
Your head is on my stomach
And we're, we're trying so hard not to fall asleep
Here we are on this 18th floor balcony
We're both flying away

And I'll try to sleep
To keep you in my dreams
Till I can bring you home with me
I'll try to sleep
And when I do I'll keep you in my dreams

Chorus:

And I knew it from the start
So my arms are open wide
Your head is on my stomach
And we're, we're trying so hard not to fall asleep
So here we are on this 18th floor balcony, yeah
We're both flying away

14. IT'S JUST ME (EUROPEAN BONUS TRACK)

I lost a piece of me in you
I think I left it in your arms
I forget the reasons I got scared
But remembered that I cared quite a lot

You see, but lately I've been on my own
Yeah, one, but one by choice
You see, that's a first for me
This only me, yeah there's only me
And now I realize for once it's just me
It's just me
It's just me and I'll find a way to make it
There's no-one left to stop me
Here I go, can we take it from the top?

Chorus:

So wide, so long
So sad, I want to be strong
Don't try to take this from me
I've already spent living half my life undone
So wide, so long
So sad, I want to be strong
Don't try to take this from me
I've already spent my life living half undone

I've been talking to my aunts and uncles
Mom and dad again
I've been finding that I have
What this world has called friends
I've tried to push them all away
They push me back and want to stay
And that's one good thing I have

I'm going to feel a peace in me
I'm going to feel at home
I'm going to make this cloud above me disappear
Be gone
I want to feel a punch inside
My heartbeat on the floor
I don't want to hurt no more
Yeah, it's just me
It's just me and I'll find a way to make it
There's no-one left to stop me
Here I go, can we take it from the top?

Chorus:

So wide, so long
So sad, I want to be strong
Don't try to take her from me
I've already spent my life living half undone
So wide, so long
So sad, I want to be strong
Don't try to take her from me
I've already spent my life living half undone

It's me, the one who won before
I used to smile, but don't no more
I'm living just to watch it all go by