Part Two :
... I hope that I can seem flawless to you
And always take away the pain that you'll go through
My impression is not always what it seems
You're more of a reflection of what I used to be
...So why do I feel hollow when I look at your photograph?
You take down my fortress and kill me with a smile
Please hold that thought a while
And I'll try to put you on this path
I hope you find the road I couldn't see

You won't be by yourself
I'll live for your problems and think of you when I'm gone
Don't worry now it won't be long

Once I was you I thought the world was safe
A new perspective; everybody is insane
Protecting you is a paranoid excuse
I know that you'll do better than I could ever do

... And thoughts of self-destruction
Are now all buried in the past
You take down my barricade and melt away my heart
If loving hurts so much I want this pain to always last
I hope you pass the test that I have failed

You won't be by yourself
I'll live for your problems and think of you when I'm gone
Don't worry now it won't be long

I apologize to you for the words not spoken yet
Don't want you to look back and live in regret
Some day you'll ask me why I was away...


There Will Be Revenge :
Staring out the window she sees glimpses of last
And everyone is silent but speaking through their eyes
Walking to the bus stop where the court of judges wait
To sentence her to live her life
Like she should always be ashamed
Been around so many times it wears out what you are
Accepting sarcasm and false sincerity
As words that people mean

Rejection redefined by giving up just what they're after
Someone would tell you
If they could speak above all this laughter
Think you could learn somehow the time just isn't now

Got a reputation now and no one's holding back
Wearing scars on your sleeve, so exposed to their attack
All her friends have pulled the plug on respect and reserve
Behind her back they prey on weakness
It's not what you deserve
Shot down, humiliated, pummeled by their words
Devoted you lay down with misplaced loyalty
Its misery you seek

No longer called by name when everybody's got your number
When dignity is gone
That's when depression drags you under
To depths you didn't know beneath and under
No longer called by name when everybody's got your number
When dignity is gone
That's when depression drags you under
To depths you didn't know beneath the undertow


For Fiona :
I Can't even think a words to match the way a feeling
I Don't even think a book can say enough for you
I can only try my best to put it in a song
I guess, you try to speak I know you tell the truth

If I could praise a smile another time together
then we could make believe this world would never end
-- the truth is gone So you stayed young while I get on
But always know, I'm your best friend

Nothing is the same everything is a better change
sometimes I see silence in your eyes
Let it all crash down, waiting in deep against with you
I'm going to look every time you do

And I'm as scared as anybody who has done this
I would have given up but not defeat
You took my love, turned it a around, you put
my feet back on the ground, I owe you, eternally

Nothing is the same everything is a better change
sometimes I see silence in your eyes
Let it all crash down, waiting in deep against with you
I'm going to look every time you do

I'm always
I'm always
I'm always here
I'm always
I'm always
I'm always here

Nothing is the same everything is a better change
sometimes I see silence in your eyes
Let it all crash down, waiting in deep against with you
I'm going to look every time you do




Check For A Pulse :
Fall into nowhere, fading out
Afraid of who we are, get used to it somehow

Like sad and distant memories
Time is something that we never can replace
A long and fucked up road but everyone's at home
Where it's dysfunctional and safe

You can hide inside your kingdom where the guards refuse to change
Without noticing the doubt in people these days
faces tell the story of a broken heart,
Together we fall apart

Is anyone alive in here?
Acceptance has become a common state of mind,
We love stupidity, it doesn't hurt as much
It's worse to feel than be out of touch

This is failure through conforming
Paranoia is trend as life hangs in the balance of the weak-minded
Free prescription of placebo for us all
We only stand when it's safe to fall


Divine Let Down :
It's funny how blind faith often is used
Like a net to fall on in desperate times
Like a crutch for regret as a last resort

I won't let emotions take me
And rely on this fence that's fallen on my head

Guilt is an entity of its own fall from grace
And self-worth is their reminder
To feel out of place in your own home

Another excuse to divide us and keep the siege at bay
As long as thoughts are suppressed we'll think the same



Black Box :
Up here sedated in my seat,
Can't wait until i can see my feet
And run away from stupid things i've said
I'll be here a few days from now,
We'll talk about it when i come down
If we make it this time, I'll clean the stain i've bled

Our worlds collide in new beginnings
It's an emergency permission to bail out
So when the heart crash lands,
What memories will survive?
I thank my black box that i'm alive

I feel unlucky today, can't wash the panic off my face
Didn't learn a thing from the last time
I'ts so selfish to be so confused,
Heart beats like rapid fire
So close to the edge but far away in mind

Two days to go until i see you
Looks like we can call the ambulance down there
My head is touching down i've learned to be afraid
I thank my black box that you're the same



Bullets :
Alone on stage without song
so where is jesus now and where do I belong
What is faith if there is no proof?
The answer is the same but not for anyone, the question lingers on

So out of desperation
Humans do their worst the find out what that is
A mystery known to many as the divine... it's their dime

If What they wrote is what he said, to equally forgive,
We read the whole thing wrong
And guidance should be used like a tool
When it gets handed down
It tends to get so damn confusing for a fool

And every word they preach is only opinion
That's why our love divides itself into a thousand pieces
Like bullets shot in vain, without sight



Apparition :
I'm sick of everything, I can't get out of bed
Just lay here, someone pull me out
I'm tired of these thoughts, the world moves outside
Feel like a ghost, rejected by the living

Everybody is so impressed with the things the say
I take a look at what a joke it is and then lock myself away

Come on ego you fool, I see your apparition in the doorway
Beckoning me, promising to be here
When the planet lets me down, you'll still be around

Unconscious and awake, miscounting all the sheep
Too late for a peaceful night of sleep
A nightmare comes and goes, I can't remember it
It's sinking, the holes are filling my ship

Everybody is laughing at the man out on the blow
I'm learning now that nothing in common
Is better than finding out

Come on ego you fool, I see your apparition in the doorway
Beckoning me, promising to be here
When the planet lets me down, you'll still be around

I'm sick of everything,
I can't get out of bed just lay here like I'm dead


It's Tragic :
Tragedy pulls us together but anything tears us apart
Trying hard to stay complacent but all the systems fail
And fear denies the truth that's in your heart

Forgetting lessons I have learned
My mouth is shut the table turned
No one giving time is winning again

I can't shift the blame forever
Some is your and some is mine
Sick of searching for a solution we'll always disagree
If the other half is too afraid to fight

I'm losing the will to believe
They're marching as if they were free
How could millions be so stupid??
And it's tragic everywhere I go
This country is not what you know
No one giving, fear is winning again

Strength beyond our souls (not enough to save us)
Way beyond control (we are all defenseless)


Killing Time :
Not knowing what he had got into, only following the sheep
The message sent for his deployment at only twenty-three
Promised to be there for a short time
His mother looks at photos
Passed down from a family tradition;
Her head lies on her lap...

I'll never be sure exactly what it means
To serve and protect us from "enemies"
They make sure we're scared
To justify this ugly, bloody mess
It's less than your pride, it's suicide at best

The waiting fills her with delusion and memories gone by
"how could I give life to my baby and then let him go die?"
But with this joke administration where no one is exempt
It's not your fault and never will be.
Don't hold love in contempt...

I feel like I'm lost, drowning out at sea
Surrounded by space with no regard for sympathy
She sees the parade of victory and war that wasn't won
"I'm not coming home." "he's my only son."

If an angel earns its wings every time somebody dies
Then todays the angels black out the blue sky


Slowly Fading Fast :
Everyday is passing quickly like a bullet train
And time is not impressed with your complaints
Try moving faster just to get ahead of everyone
Your misconceived beliefs are killing you faster than anyone

It's been so long
I can't remember getting kicked around like that
If we all follow our dreams too late the easier it seems
But the truth we are slowly fading fast

Simple minds are hard to please
When denying the fast your life is not a test
You have to let it go before you get it back

I'ts been so long
I can't remember getting kicked around like that
If we all follow our dreams too late the easier it seems
But the truth we are slowly fading fast

I don't recall any time that you did it by yourself
I look at a photograph of you and everyone that you take is a fake
And if this ride is so long then I just haven't seen the proof
The picture isn't you


Overdue:
The flowers have wilted on the sill
And words have been kept so small and still
And yet if the great opinion speaks
Then sadly we nod our heads and agree
Barely a mention of your name
On deaf ears a distant whisper
Whatever, no one gets it

It's already overdue you will not be heard by many now
But I'll always be amazed by every sound your ever made

While building a tolerance to them
You made sorrow sound like a good friend
The well where the poison pen was drawn
The same place you trusted then but was gone
Enemies battled in your mind
Until all the blood shed leaked down
Dried up and rusted the fight

It's already overdue you will not be heard by many now
But I'll always be amazed by every sound you ever made
And since I did not know you, I can only say but a few words
Too bad they won't hear your song that I've been singing all alone