Thinking of it

Feel the way I feel
A taste of what's real
You'd wish you could fly away
It always seems to ease
The sweet ol'kiss of nicotine
Sunday I'll quit smoking
Another promise up high on my list
Of promises never kept
As I walk along this cold, wet street
Hoping to cross Mr.Right,
Some stupid weirdo
Cracks my silence, barking at me
"Hey little girl, wanna go for a ride?!"
Another shitty day, but I let it slide
For a moment it made me stop

Thinking of it
Stop thinking of it

I got back home and screamed
But I don't think it was loud enough
To bury that sadness
'Cause it really doesn't seem to become weaker
Now where's my pride
As I search for pennies
I leave a note on the table
That no one's gonna read,
"Just gone drinking"
Where am I? What's that place?
How did I get there?
Excuse me sir, but what's your name?
A few more reasons to blame myself
AS if I haven't got it all figured out
I'm so sorry, but not that sorry
'Cause for a moment it just made me stop

Thinking of it
Stop thinking of it

Yeah, I got your letter
But I threw it out
Would I have felt better
Reading 2 pages full of shit about how I'm a bitch?
Maybe it would have made me stronger
But right now I need to sleep
And then I sweat to you that I'll be alright
But give up
Hang up that stupid phone
And please help me stop

Thinking of it
Stop thinking of it


Gate 22

I won't try to argue now
Anyway I feel there's nothing I could say
To ease your mind
Maybe there's nothing exciting outside
But ‘round here I'm just wasting my time
Spinning ‘round on nothing new
When I close my eyes I remember that kiss
I'd rather keep them wide open
And if I miss that train do you really think
That even here, I'd be closer to you

So here I am leaving soon and
I'm standing at gate 22
‘Cause whatever you may think I forgot
You know I'm still thinking about it
Sometimes I wish I could stay
But no matter where I go, no matter how long
You know I'll keep hanging on. Sweet memories
I'm leaving but my mind will surely stay
At gate 22

There's too many dreams I must chase down
Though sometimes I bite off more than I can chew
I know you'd like to keep me near
I know it's easier to be two
But I can't plan my life all around you
I'm weaker than I'll let you know
So don't ask me to jump this wall
From here it looks too tall
Two people kissing goodbye facing a door
A classic picture we're all tired of

So here I am leaving soon and
I'm standing at gate 22
‘Cause whatever you may think I forgot
You know I'm still thinking about it
Sometimes I wish I could stay
But no matter where I go, no matter how long
You know I'll keep hanging on. Sweet memories
I'm leaving but my mind will surely stay

And I already see the picture of that day
When you'll say you'll wait for me
And I'll pretend just then to believe you
I'll send you postcards for a few weeks and then
Another perfect moment at the wrong time
But the timing is always wrong

So here I am leaving soon and
I'm standing at gate 22
‘Cause whatever you may think I forgot
You know I'm still thinking about it
Sometimes I wish I could stay
But no matter where I go, no matter how long
You know I'll keep hanging on. Sweet memories
I'm leaving but my mind will surely stay
At gate 22


Smilin'!!

I am not gonna make it
I can see the crowd around me
Is getting bigger and as it is
I'm trying to figure out
Why I feel so isolated
I have my friends
But don't have much time for them
I have my house
And a tiny pocket in my luggage
I have my boyfriend
But he's also so tired of listening to me
Every single day
Seems like a mountain to climb
Every single word
It takes all my strength to get it out
I'm tired of talking about me
But in fact it's the only thing
I get a grip on
I feel like I'm not gonna make it
I really feel like I'm not gonna make it
But it might be the best thing
That never happened to me, so now

Hey little girl keep on smiling!!
‘Cause they don't wanna hear you complaining
You're a lucky girl
Your life is so exciting
So I'll keep on making bad jokes
‘Cause you think I'm strong
And it might be the way you like it
Oh how I need you to like me…


Clip Pascale Picard - Smiling'! I am not gonna make it
I can see the crowd around me
Is getting bigger and as it is
I'm trying to figure out
Why I feel so isolated
I have my friends
But don't have much time for them
I have my house
And a tiny pocket in my luggage
I have my boyfriend
But he's also so tired of listening to me
Every single day
Seems like a mountain to climb
Every single word
It takes all my strength to get it out
I'm tired of talking about me
But in fact it's the only thing
I get a grip on
I feel like I'm not gonna make it
I really feel like I'm not gonna make it
But it might be the best thing
That never happened to me, so now

Hey little girl keep on smiling!!
‘Cause they don't wanna hear you complaining
You're a lucky girl
Your life is so exciting
So I'll keep on making bad jokes
‘Cause you think I'm strong
And it might be the way you like it
Oh how I need you to like me…

I have tried as hard as I can
I have tried to go through 9 to 5
But I was like a train
Between work and bars
Never found out what I was traveling for
Now I have my car
But I ain't got no safe place to go
I still hold my drink
But I'm not as thirsty as before
I have my voice
But I heard lately that people
Don't want to hear sad songs
Every single place
It's all the same to me
Every single face
I know it will be replaced
But another smiley one
Who will also be left soon
Somewhere behind
I feel like I'm not gonna make it
I really feel like I'm not gonna make it
But it might be the best thing
That never happened to me, so now

Hey little girl keep on smiling!!
‘Cause they don't wanna hear you complaining
You're a lucky girl
Your life is so exciting
So I'll keep on making bad jokes
‘Cause you think I'm strong
And it might be the way you like it
Oh how I need you to like me…

Please now just don't count on me
I can't handle it anymore
And don't ask me why
If you don't want me to lie
But don't be alarmed
Don't you see that I'm just down
Just don't worry soon
I'll be back on the tracks

Smiling!!
‘Cause I'll get tired of complaining
I'm a lucky girl
And I'm doing exactly what I wanted
So I'll keep on making bad jokes
‘Cause I need to be strong
And it might be my only chance to get out of it
And now I really need to make it!!


Unconscious Liars

Let's rent a car and get out of this place
Make them shut up, I really need a few minutes grace
They'll say we're stupid if we leave
And they'll call us chicken shit if we stay
What would you be ready to die for?

This advice could be useful
But promise me the final decision will be yours
They will be scared if we try
And disappointed if we give up
Can you make sense of it all?

And if they try to do anything to smash our hopes
Dare them to steal that dream from the source
They might not even know they are bullshitting us
So forgive the unconscious liars

The ones that love you want to get involved when fate is on your side
And obviously when you get down they suddenly realize
They are really in a big rush this month
They'll call you later but don't you know they won't

Let's rent a car and get out of this place
Make them shut up, I really need a few minutes grace
They'll say we're stupid if we leave
And they'll call us chicken shit if we stay
What would you be ready to die for?

This advice could be useful
But promise me the final decision will be yours
They will be scared if we try
And disappointed if we give up
Can you make sense of it all?

And if they try to do anything to smash our hopes
Dare them to steal that dream from the source
They might not even know they are bullshitting us
So forgive the unconscious liars

The ones that love you want to get involved when fate is on your side
And obviously when you get down they suddenly realize
They are really in a big rush this month
They'll call you later but don't you know they won't

They always say they know exactly how it feels
They'll probably tell you they fought something similar
When they swear they understand,
It doesn't mean that they won't try to stop you from getting better
And if they try to do anything to smash our hopes
Dare them to steal that dream from the source
They might not even know they are bullshitting us
So forgive the unconscious liars

Let's rent this fucking car, I want to get out of here now
We don't need any directions, let's just say we're going far
I know I am telling you what to do
I might be a kind of liar too
But we'll always find our way back home
We'll always find our way back home…

They always say they know exactly how it feels
They'll probably tell you they fought something similar
When they swear they understand,
It doesn't mean that they won't try to stop you from getting better
And if they try to do anything to smash our hopes
Dare them to steal that dream from the source
They might not even know they are bullshitting us
So forgive the unconscious liars


That is the matter

Watching my favorite reality show
Waiting for the commercial to get another Diet Pepsi
I got 5 minutes between two programs, so I'm already wearing my coat
The musical theme starts and I'm running to the grocery
Buying my lottery, saying to the cashier,
I'd better be lucky ‘cause the government steals all my money

My teenagers are doing drugs and my baby girl wears thongs
I called 3 or 4 times to the open lines to give my point of view about it
I also thought about writing a letter to the prime minister
He has to know that our kids are out of hand because of rap music
And movies ‘cause if they are violent it's all their fault
They're too young to tell the difference between fiction & reality

And I don't really remember the day I fell down in the hole
But watch me trying to get out of it by digging deeper

They're trying to sell us a beer that's 99% water
The weather is too cold and we pay that with our taxes

Annoying

I hate you as many as you are!

Enthroned on the highest chair, a little
Tiny peek at me and then back to your world
Playing for the staff that couldn't care less
Singing as low as possible but

I hate the way you make me feel annoying
I hate the power you've got on my self esteem
Pieces of my heart shared with strangers
I hate you as many as you are!

This barmaid is a shame to her place, ignoring
That I have asked 20 times for a drink
Thirsty, watching you and your sweet glass of wine
But haven't you seen the no-smoking sign
Swimming in my sweat it's so fucking hot in here
Diving on the rocks you're so fucking hard to reach
Is there a way to get any attention?!?
I hate you as many as you are!

You know it's true myself can be the way to see
Words that wouldn't make sense if you were listening to me
Please singer, sing us a song we all know by heart ‘cause
We're only open to new radio stuff
I'm also entirely sure my place is not here
I would really enjoy switching places with you
Judging this girl who is only trying to pay her bills
Fuck you as many as you are!
I hate the way you make me feel annoying
I hate the power you've got on my self esteem
Pieces of my heart shared with strangers
I hate you as many as you are!

The sound's bad, the voice is too loud, it's not my kind of music
She's always singing the same songs, sorry if I only know two thousand
Do you know this band? Well, you should, this is your kind of music
It's not my fault if you got nothing else to do but be here 3 days a week
I hate the way you make me feel annoying
I hate the power I give you on my self-esteem
Between a drunk ass and me guess who's the most annoying?!
Fuck you!

Let's have a drink

Let's have a drink
At least find a place to sit
How I enjoy these times
My mind locked on your lips
I'm still listening
I'm just a little out of it
Who's that man?
Why did he turn the neon on?

99 messages on your voice-mail
No call-back
My heart nailed to your locked door but
Still no news
Ok, so you're gone
Leave my womb... figured it all out...
Can't take my eyes off that phone
Remove this ghost behind my back

Let's have a drink
At least find a place to sit
How I enjoy these times
My mind locked on your lips
I'm still listening
I'm just a little out of it
Who's that man?
Why did he turn the neon on?

99 messages on your voice-mail
No call-back
My heart nailed to your locked door but
Still no news
Ok, so you're gone
Leave my womb... figured it all out...
Can't take my eyes off that phone
Remove this ghost behind my back

I saw your girlfriend a few days ago
Pieces of you in my arms
Her salty tears running down my cheek
A taste of guilt left on my lips
My whole body would have all given up
For that touch
But what I kept secret
There's just no need to regret

Sorry

Am I that scary or are you only indifferent
Are you ashamed to show me?
Sometimes I know I can be different
Are you proud of me?
Those nights when I sing at the restaurant?
Or would you prefer to be free?
Just too busy to keep your arms open?

Am I just too strange?
To be a girl, more than a friend
Could we speak seriously?
Right now I swear to you I won't ask for it often
Would you forgive me?
If I'd cry while you're having fun
Would you pretend to be free
The minute you were alone with that girl?

Maybe I'm much too close to jealousy
Lost between regrets and melancholy
But give me a reason to be less insecure
Maybe I'm much too close to fantasy
Miles away from reality
Sorry if I'm unable to hear anymore

Am I really that angry?
Or are you just too stoned
Well it's driving me crazy
You may think I'm always paranoid about being wrong
But this pain that cuts so deeply
Tell me, is this the way I was born
‘Cause now I feel I've been real
Just like I've been for so long

Have I spoken clearly?
Should I still wait for that sun?
Stop feeding me with stories or apologies
I've already learned to be strong
But keep your hands off of me
‘Cause you know that I won't run
Then once again probably
How I'll swear I'll never ever be that dumb

Maybe I'm much too close to jealousy
Lost between regrets and melancholy
But give me a reason to be less insecure
Maybe I'm much too close to fantasy
Miles away from reality
But apologies I just can't believe anymore
Sorry if I'm unable to hear anymore


A while

How do I feel? Alone and lousy
And I may seem selfish but I need
A little break on my own, can't you see
I'm just tired of being phony

So for a while stop calling me, my friend
I've spent 20 years forgetting myself and then
What else? Am I just incomplete?
Sometimes I'm so sick of being sweet

I'm sure far away from me
You'd feel better than down here
So why don't you take a look at this path
And then you'll see…
‘Cause I'll never be a bit far away from me

So here I'm again, in front of the TV
Watching lives more exciting than mine
Because there's always just too many good reasons
Too many reasons to be sad

I'm sure far away from me
You'd feel better than down here
So why don't you take a look at this path
And then we'll see…
‘Cause I'll never be a bit far away from me
Why don't you try to keep your distance
That's so weird to try to listen to myself
As long as I won't be, for a while, far away from me
I know I may be rude
But failing is always cruel
Don't wait for me to stand next to you
I won't be here for a while
I won't be here for a while

Nothing more than this silent scream inside
So what, do you wanna hear about self-control?
Talking a little louder than usual
Freeing myself from what I just don't wanna hold

I'm sure far away from me
You'd feel better than down here
So why don't you take a look at this path
And then we'll see…
‘Cause I'll never be a bit far away from me
Why don't you try to keep your distance
That's so weird to try to listen to myself
As long as I won't be, for a while, far away from me
I know I may be rude
But failing is always cruel
Don't wait for me to stand next to you
I won't be here for a while
I won't be here for a while
I won't be here for a while
I won't be here for a while


When at the end of the road

No matter where you start
No matter if your story is worse than mine
Everybody suffered, we all have a background
And the choice to leave it behind
There's a time when it's sane to leave our pain
There's a time when it's vital to live again

But I don't even want to try to ride 2 bikes with only my arms
So if you're not even ready to try to hold your handlebars
Meanwhile, we're not gonna flee, we'll just wait and see

‘Cause we never know how many years
We have to leave our trace
So keep your speed, I'll keep mine
And as long as it's safe
I'll stay on my trail
So I'll be the only one to blame if I get lost

‘Cause nothing's gonna change
And you're not gonna change ‘cause I would like to
Well, you're not gonna change, and good for you
I wouldn't want you to
I'm not gonna change anyone & no one will ever change me
As long as I like the way I am
Today I just adore the way I am

Well I think you're running too fast & if I try to follow you
My problems might follow us too
We may not have the same speed and arrive at the same point at the same time
Meanwhile, I'm not gonna flee, I'll just wait & see

‘Cause we never know how many years
We have to leave our trace
So keep your speed, I'll keep mine
& as long as it's safe
I'll stay on my trail
So I'll be the only one to blame if I get lost

But I don't even wanna try to ride 2 bikes with only one ass
And if you're not even ready to kick yours...

There are times to fight even against the current
There are times when all you can do is follow the wave
Wherever it might bring us it couldn't be lower than where
We are now
Meanwhile, we're not gonna flee, we'll just wait & see


Useless

I thought for a long time
That it began the day you left
Saying goodbye on mama's porch
Forsaking this troubled woman
‘Cause you thought you did your best
And couldn't give more
You never meant to let me down
But finally I was alone
She is crazy it's all her fault
But I paid for it anyway
You needed to save yourself
How come you didn't save me too?
Why did you leave me there?

It all began the day he left
It must be someone's fault
‘Cause you gave all the love that you had
Talking about it with all your friends
‘Cause the phone is the only escape
From this apartment
You never wanted me to suffocate
But finally I drowned with you
He's a rat, don't ever trust him
I don't trust anyone, anyway
You needed to save yourself
And I'm old enough to understand
Why do I always have to understand?

You might not realize how it hurts
Always did what you could
I just waited for something that never came
I tried all the ways to kill the pain
I'm what I am ‘cause of it all
I'm glad I chose to save myself
I never meant to be ungrateful
But you owe it to me
I never meant to be rude
But it was the only way to say it
I never meant to be mad at you
But I was angry anyway…
And it never got me anywhere


Half asleep

The world 's not gonna end
I made this promise to me
Repeating to myself 12 times a day
Nobody loves no one, anyway
But someone is still crying
In a corner of my head
& if you believe me when I say I'm alright

This week is gonna end
Make this promise to me
Calling me 12 times a day
But I know what you're about to say
‘Cause you may be whispering
But in the corner of my head
The voice is clear, will you be alright?

The more that I hope, the more I keep waiting
The more I get old
In a hurry, I'd rather fix up my mind soon
The more I keep waiting, the more I fall back
It seems like I'll never get held
By someone exactly like me

What if we'd bend?
Breaking all the promises we made
Juggling with words 12 hours a day
12 more and my life 's away
‘Cause this voice is running in circles
In a corner of my head
Making me dizzy but it feels so right...

The more that I hope…