1. BOY IN A MAGAZINE

I'll crack my head,
then pour in some sorrow,
I stole some things from you
I could have easily borrowed.
When you were pissed and on the rag.
I waited around but now I'm packing my bags.
To live on a street in Hollywood.
Will they love me there?
I'll be a boy in a magazine.
I'll mean nothing to you,
you'll mean nothing to me.
You asked to go so I guess that I'll leave
And just be a boy in a magazine.
I won't have a bed.
I'll still have my string stained hand.
I call home where animals are buried in the backyard.


2. I HAVEN'T SEEN YOU IN YEARS

Did I forget, or have I really lost my mind.
Should I care about anybody's soul but mine?
It's true that time will have to heal my crimes
But it won't have the time to heal me

Hey old lady, remember the boy you once knew?
He grew up loving no one else but you
He didn't watch you grow
He doesn't think of you as old
Just a young girl he never got to know

Oh but I, I haven't seen you in years
Oh but I, I haven't seen you in years

I talk and talk to anyone who's listening.
I tell those ears I'm finally finishing,
Wrapping gifts for all the holidays I missed.
Happy birthday, for every single year.

It's a crazy world and we're both stuck in it.
Take my hand, and I will rescue you from it.
Into this perfect world, where you're dressed in pearls.
We'll get married before our families in a church.

Oh but I, I haven't seen you in years
Oh but I, I haven't seen you in years

It's been long but I still obsess.
It might be weird but I must confess.
I've been sick. There's something wrong with me
For thinking you're every tan brunette I see.
I dream how you look like now.
I haven't seen you in years.


3. MAY I BUM A SMOKE?

What happened to the good time music?
I don't wanna sing about dark things.
Wanna see what the sunshine can bring.
I don't wanna love, I wanna have a fling.

Hey! Maybe I can be a presidente,
Spread love around the country.
You can get sick of shit,
But shit will never get sick of you.

[Chorus]
I'll smoke as long as my birthdays pass.
As long as my paychecks last.
As long as I can't relax.

I'm so far between.
I can buy you flowers, and I can make you scream.
I can be nice, yes, I can be mean.
I can do you dirty and I can do you clean.

I spoiled you with the sunshine.
How you never really got to see the rain.
How you still complain.
Maybe you should smoke a joint to your brain.

[Chorus]

What happened to the good time music? [x2]
I don't wear nice shoes or treat people like glass
I break all of them by blowing sunshine in their ass

[Chorus](x2)


4. JANIS JOPLIN HANDS

You used to look so alive.
In the last year you looked like you turned 35.
I used to hate you so I put you under my belt.
I'm so confused and cannot tell you how I felt.
They always try and bring me down but
I'm always so constantly high.
Remember when you were like puddles in the rain?
I stopped the water but you told me that you felt the same.
You smoke a bit then you talked a revolution.
Well, I looked and saw there's no solution
It's spelled out in all of our pollution.
Will it come again?
Feeling like the 60s?
Hold out your Janis Joplin hands.
I'll give you my cold James Dean eyes.
Take a flower. soak it in gasoline.
Empty my pockets and show you exactly what I mean.
How can you stare and never really look at?
You watch T.V. eat and get a little fat.
I see your comfy and I'm not gonna deny that.
You lay around so it's easier to hear lies.
Compare the generation with a word like, "separation"
Separated? No, I feel we're constipated.
We can't get out what everybody wants to say.
We're educated but they tell us we're wrong anyway.
They always try and pull us down but
We're always so constantly high


5. LONG DISTANCE CALLS

Everyone is working hard.
Mothers got a shit job.
Daddy got a blow job.
Divorce ain't free.
Lawyer gets a phone call.
He's back on the payroll.
It's time to figure out who gets the house and the keys.
Mom and Dad get uptight.
The kids see the whole fights.
It's all very childlike, their vulgar tones.
Sister starts crying, brother starts whining,
But please don't forget we're a family.
Now it's time for long distance calls
To say I love you I don't know you at all.
I don't sympathize with dead beat dads.
He sits alone we were all he had.
It's 20 year later.
Brothers got a girlfriend.
His wife is on the back end.
Divorce ain't fee.
Sisters got a husband.
But he don't give her lovin'.
It's funny its a turnaround how life isn't free.
Got to pay the mortgage and get the kids thru college.
And maybe if we're lucky we can make ends meet.
Sister starts crying, brother starts whining.
But please don't forget we're a family.


6. CONSTANT APOLOGY

When I was younger I was not concerned with
Much of anything at all.
I got picked up by everyone around me.
I was not allowed to fall.
I got a car and I started moving
But really went nowhere at all.
I used to think that my mind was wasted.
But now I can't recall.
I live too fast trying not to be last.
Didn't take my time so the timing passed.
Now I feel like I am stuck
In a constant apology.
Why must I feel so damn useless
And bombarded with excuses.
Can't you see the softer side of my sorry little life?
Or at least try?


7. RELEVANT ELEPHANT

Nothing is that big.
Nothing is so small.
We are relevant.
We mean something to someone.
I didn't see them then.
It's too late to meet them now.
I can't help but look at my face
And all it's flaws.
At least the weather is looking better these days.
Everyone is looking better these days.
Maybe in 10 years you'll be as lost as I am now.
I'll still be looking if you'd still like to be found.
But hurry up.
I won't get too old.
I don't want to fade.
I will die so young
I'll miss all the love I could have made.
Even a little rain can cause some annoying traffic.
When you're no longer attractive you'll be annoying too.
Nothing is that big.
Nothing is that small.
We are relevant.
We mean something to someone.


8. SPREAD THE RUMORS

Spread the rumors Julia.
He's going out of his mind.
Grandmas going blind.
It hurts them both to see.
Tears are cures for sore eyes that stare at clouds all their lives.
I traded rainchecks to see a sunny day.
Leave me and mother alone.
Our half family in our two family home.
Not much is all we've known.
A little less is all we own.
We are just little thread.
Space, the room.
Earth, the bed.
A woman's sewing us for the infant universe.
She wants no more thoughts and no more drugs.
Money or religion.
Shes tired of friends and their coincidences.
This happens when the kinds doesn't get enough sleep.
He knows what wrong but can't help what is happening.


9. DON'T SAY

I hide my love away and its never coming out.
No one will realize that it just hides in me.
I don't say everything I want to.
I march to these drums that keep constant time.
Telling me which way to go and how to live
But I don't want to live on a line.
I don't say everything I want to.
I'd like if you said something about me
Besides I'm looking like I lost weight.
I'm good, I'm great, I'm perfectly straight.
I just don't say everything I want to.
She had a hard time taking compliments.
So I forced them down her throat like a fresh box of mints.
I sailed my ship and caught her a couple more.
I weighed them out and I brought them to the shore.
"Please kind sir these things I cannot pay you for.
Just use them today.
She might be gone tomorrow. Tomorrow."


10. THIS OPINION OF MINE

Man was never meant to float.
So we fly, we drive, we take a boat.
You'll meet someone eventually and you'll tell me I'm wrong.
When you walk your feet don't touch the street.
I consider myself an intelligent guy
But I'd love to be wrong in this opinion of mine.
I'll meet the perfect woman and I'll just site at home
While she does fine cooking.
You're so fine this lover of mine.
Relax my dear.
Pour yourself some wine.


11. DIAMOND IN A WORLD OF COAL

Overdressed in a box with it's life overhead.
It's friends are in snapshots.
I would hate if the last time I was ever seen
Was from beggars on their knees.
I lived in between a funeral home and childrens park.
Out one window I saw laughter.
Out the other I saw suits.
Spare them the sight of a body all used.
Comfortably laid in clothes you would never wear.
Your eyes are closed shut, even though they cannot see.
They broke a bone or two just to adjust the body.
Once had a doll that was pure as the snow in thread.
The bags under her eyes, they matches clothes that were chosen
Just to compensate how terribly they shined.
She was a prize that made the sun and the moon fight over Which one would cast the shadow.
Which one would keep her company.
I fooled myself in thinking I knew you.
But all I know were glassy eyes,
Is this the way you gain your youth?
A sweet hangover at my service.
Go so far under the influence you'll make blacker bags under your eyes.
So far you become underground.
So far you will never realize your a diamond in a world of coal.


12. ANOTHER HEADACHE

Don't worry girl.
Oh, I'll be the bear you need.
Underneath your sheets and helping you sleep.
Where should we go?
Oh, I'll be the car you need.
You started my engine.
Now you're driving me crazy.
I usually don't hand out my keys.
But you can drive anytime you want.
And your eyes remind me of the trees.
How they turn from beautiful brown to green,
When I am gone, you are all I see.
The wind sweeps across and they whisper to me.
"There is a girl back home.
She's bright and she's warm, so don't let her go."
I'll be the sun and let you soak in me.
Keeping me dry and out of the shitty weather.
If you cry I will sing beautifully.
Don't mind my tone,
You know you're making me nervous.
Riding shooting stars all day,
Everyone is just jealous of us.
Floating my days away,
I think we're in paradise.
Just hold onto my body.
Leave marks on my skin.
You know you mean the world to me.
Home is where you are and home is just where I'm going.