1. I'm a little alike you before, things had changed
Inner compass aligned, all this feels rearranged

Tell me, does it matter
If I'm still here, or I'm gone?
Shifting to the after
An imposter, I'm not the one you know

I look the same outside
Nearly me, even though
I carry something I hide
Underneath the one you know

Tell me, does it matter
If I'm still here, or I'm gone?
Shifting to the after
An imposter, soldiers on

Are you surprised
Black water flows
From wells run dry
I'm not the one you know

Lay me out with flowered guilt
Watch the explosions falling
Cannot live within this tilt
Carrying over
I'm not the one you know

Tell me, does it matter
If I'm still here, or I'm gone?
Shifting to the after
An imposter, soldiers on

Are you surprised
Black water flows
From wells run dry
I'm not the one you know
I'm not the one you know

2. Some things last, sometimes you never get over
Live in the past, you find out it's hard to stay sober
My see-through skin like Eurythane
Lost and then found, on view for all and I wouldn't trade

You'd never know a long time ago you were frowning
Thinkin' it over
It's raining down, and somehow you know

It reminds me why I even care anymore
You can find me writhing in the ghost of a song
Rising through the Rainier fog

Some people change, sometimes you leave how it oughta be
Find a new way to come clean, let it wash over me
My see-through heart like Eurythane
Beats for you proud, up down and through all the love and pain

You'd never know a long time ago you were crowning
Thinkin' it over
It's raining down, and somehow you know

It reminds me why I even care anymore
You can find me writhing in the ghost of a song
Rising through the Rainier fog

Left me here so all alone, only for me to find
Hear your voice on waves we rode, echoes inside my mind
Disembodied just a trace of what it was like then
With you here we shared a space that's always half empty

Grinding, grinding on
Always half empty
Grinding, grinding on
Always half empty

So we can laugh it's inside, never hear me complain
My see-through city of cellophane
You'd never know a long time ago you were drowning
Thinking it over
It's raining down, and somehow you know

It reminds me why I even care anymore
You can find me writhing in the ghost of a song
Rising through the Rainier fog

Reminds me why I even care anymore
You can find me writhing in the ghost of a song
Rising through the Rainier fog

3. I play the clown for you
Entertaining, absurd hue
And I watch them laugh, I'd love to
See them clap and dance to my tune

Blowing up like a red giant, expansive, a star
And I'm coming to burn this down and laugh my ass off

All my children sing it again and again
'Cause a lie ain't a lie if you're winnin' 'em over
Amen

I act on stage up here
Toying with your own fears
Misdirection I'm so near
Simple sleight of hand, in the clear

Blowing up like a red giant, expansive, a star
And I'm coming to burn this down and laugh my ass off

All my children sing it again and again
'Cause a lie ain't a lie if you're winnin' 'em over
Amen

Too late now, show's over
Real life is much closer
Take the makeup off, you wonder
Why I look the same, only bolder

Blowing up like a red giant, expansive, a star
And I'm coming to burn this down and laugh my ass off

All my children sing it again and again
'Cause a lie ain't a lie if you're winnin' 'em over
Amen

All my children sing it again and again
'Cause a lie ain't a lie if you're winnin' 'em over
Amen


4. Led out on a leash behind you, holding ground
And I don't need no reminding, I've been around
Been around, yeah, I am a sound, yeah

Lie down with your peace where you find it
Won't come cheap
Fill up on love when you're hungry, tired then sleep
Have your dreams

Don't let it wind you, let it bring you down
I hate to tell you how little I have found

They paved the road with fool's gold

And you're gonna fall out
You're gonna break down, choke and cry
Waiting out the storm when there ain't no place to hide
And you're gonna fall out
You're gonna break down, choke and cry
Waiting out the storm till the skies are clear to fly

And you're gonna fall out
You're gonna break down, choke and cry
Waiting out the storm till the skies are clear to fly

Follow where it leads, your heart will know what's true
Don't be blinded by shiny pretty things well past due
It's on you, yeah, it's on you, yeah

Don't let it wind you, let it bring you down
I hate to tell you how little I have found

And you're gonna fall out
You're gonna break down, choke and cry
Waiting out the storm when there ain't no place to hide
And you're gonna fall out
You're gonna break down, choke and cry
Waiting out the storm till the skies are clear to fly

They paved the road with fool's gold
They paved the road with fool's gold

5. In my eyes you are beautiful
Not just right, perfect spiritual
I did what I had to do to get higher

Spent myself on another, entangled like lovers
Not quite dark, not quite light

Steppin' in and out of madness
Such a dedicated drone
And though you find me rather tragic
I'll stay here and feed my pet black hole

In the time I have spent with you
Unconfined, beyond physical
I did not regret my time on the wire

Spent myself on another, entangled like lovers
Not quite dark, not quite light

Steppin' in and out of madness
Such a busy bee, a drone
And though you find me rather tragic

I bear the cost, can't dull my anger
And that's fine
Built up inside, obscuring danger
It's alive

In my eyes you are beautiful
Not just right, perfect spiritual
I did what I had to do to get higher

Spent myself on another, entangled like lovers
Not quite dark, not quite light

Steppin' in and out of madness
Such a dedicated drone
And though you find me rather tragic
I'll stay here and feed my pet black hole

Pet black hole
Pet black hole
Pet black hole

So beautiful

6. Sinking below view
Time's been a wastin'
Alone in a full room
Nobody plays in

I own everything
Whine all set on eleven
I own everything
Cries a soul on fire

Hurt does surround you
Blinded and tied on
Numbness engulfs truth
Let bygones be bygones

I own everything
Whine all set on eleven
I own everything
Cries a soul on fire

And it tears me in a way
Hangin' over
And I feel it's here to stay
Inner coldness so ingrained

Feel like a fake thing
Where did the time go?
Memories worth making
Pass by the window

I own everything
Whine all set on eleven
I own everything
Cries a soul on fire
Soul on fire
7. Long gone the days of summer
In L.A. it stretches longer
Fading, waiting
Try to heal but the pain it won't go
Start with less always seems to cost more
Hating, breaking

Remember, come December
One day can last forever
Ain't nowhere that's safe for a lowly pretender
I'm shooting straight for the target center

Maybe you should know
I'm feeling lonely and I'm tired, oh yeah
Maybe I should go
Got no desire to watch the last tear fall
Maybe this will show
I'm reeling, empty, uninspired, oh yeah
Maybe I don't know
You anymore and I'm smiling
Our burden is untied
Let it die

I'd be lying if I said it felt right
Even though I got a dog in this fight
Wounded, losing
People talk, in and out the words go
To be the one from where the wind it does blow
Hounded, surrounded

Remember, come December
One life can live forever
Ain't nowhere that's safe for a lowly pretender
I'm shooting straight for the target center

Maybe you should know
I'm feeling lonely and I'm tired, oh yeah
Maybe I should go
Got no desire to watch the last tear fall
Maybe this will show
I'm reeling, empty, uninspired, oh yeah
Maybe I don't know
You anymore and I'm smiling
Our burden is untied
Let it die

Maybe you should know
I'm feeling lonely and I'm tired, oh yeah
Maybe I should go
Got no desire to watch the last tear fall
Maybe this will show
I'm reeling, empty, uninspired, oh yeah
Maybe I don't know
You anymore and I'm smiling
Our burden is untied
Let it die
8. I survive on the scraps you don't burn
Maybe love's something I'll never learn
This whole house of cards crumbling slow
If I disappear, would you even know?

The trap is time and no one gets off of this ride alive
The trap is time and no one gets off of this ride alive

So far under hell
Fought hard where I fell
Now forever dwell
So far under
So far under hell
Too much pain to tell
And now I'm ripped asunder
So far under

All my words sucked straight into the void
Same black hole where my heart was destroyed

The trap is time and no one gets off of this ride alive
The trap is time and no one gets off of this ride alive

So far under hell
Fought hard where I fell
Now forever dwell
So far under
So far under hell
Too much pain to tell
And now I'm ripped asunder
So far under

So far under hell
Fought hard where I fell
Now forever dwell
So far under
So far under hell
Too much pain to tell
And now I'm ripped asunder
So far under
9. Silent grief suffocates the room
I feel my breathing speed up at the thought of you
My inner voice seems to want me dead
Only choice to vanish down the trail I bled

You're never far away, I always see you
And when it all goes dark you light my way through

Never fade
I know you think you're someone I forgot
Never fade
I'm everything you really think I'm not
Never fade
I know you think you're someone I forgot
Never fade

Growing cold, try to numb my feeling
Lose control, all my friends are leaving
Paid the price for all the lives I used to live
Sacrifice for all the love I try to give

You're never far away, I always see you
And when it all goes dark you light my way through

Never fade
I know you think you're someone I forgot
Never fade
I'm everything you really think I'm not
Never fade
I know you think you're someone I forgot
Never fade

Never fade
I know you think you're someone I forgot
Never fade
I'm everything you really think I'm not
Never fade
I know you think you're someone I forgot
Never fade
I'm everything you really think I'm not

Never fade

Never fade

Never fade
10. Cannot recognize the face before me
It's unfamiliar
Time has left me broken down and homely
Can you still see me undisguised?

Outside the window of your eyes
Clinging to the memory of your prime
After many years the road you wandered
Left you here alone, deprived of others

On your toes or on your heels
There's a line drawn on the floor
Where the blood has dried there is no shine
Have another go my friend
You see I can't feel any more
While you question just who the hell am I

Is this all I am?
Given all I can?
Is this all I am?

Till the end of time
Never knowing why

Ghosts and damage no advantage for me
I'm past believing
Understand the price you pay disarming
When you can leave it all behind

Outside the window of your eyes
Clinging to the memory of your prime
After many years the road you wandered
Left you here alone, deprived of others

On your toes or on your heels
There's a hole worn in the floor
Where the blood has dried there is no shine
Have another go my friend
You see I can't feel any more
While you question just who the hell am I

Is this all I am?
Given all I can?
Is this all I am?

Till the end of time
Never knowing why

Cannot recognize the face before me
It's unfamiliar