In Particular

Lying on my back. I heard music.
Felt unsure & catastrophic. Had to tell myself it's only music.
It blows my mind, but it's like that.

Is anyone there? What could you tell me?
Afraid of what? Would you ever know?
Everyone else is really boring.
Anyone else wouldn't be good enough.

Some place safe I would imagine.
Someone new would be so cruel.
Incurable paranoiac. Hysterical depression.

Alex I'm your only friend.
Alex your love will sing for you


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» Melody of Certain Three

Crawl, crawl as a child
Move like a man
Pushing like a father
Pulling like a friend
Whatever it takes forever it seems
But despite of all that all is well

Sexing like stone
Hot as the sand
Entering a life
Exiting with a man
Whatever it takes forever it seems
But despite of all that all is well

Sometimes i spin around for days
Skip and chase and say
Forget about tomorrow
Until i realize
This valid and logic motion
Is what keeps me from moving
I don't understand

Running running on tracks
With feet on the ground
It will only slow me down
And which way the wind blows
I run like a man ready to go anywhere

When i am so timid
You'll be my words
When i am most effective
You act like a stone
Whatever it takes forever it seems
But despite of all that all is well


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» Hated Because of Great Qualities

secret so sorry that i forgot
secret secret we're all bound to forget.
i was worried i might be rude to you.
so worried that i was.
it's a lie to serve the truth
and i'm still guilty.
i missed. so be it.

everywhere everything you ever touched.
cutting in won't do it. there's nothing to it.
you were sorry that i was alone
so sorry that you run away.
putting it on me but you already knew it.
it never meant a thing.
so be it.

i can't understand this at all.
i can't pronounce this at all.

these are different matters
these are uncertain feelings
they should never be discussed here
so keep it to yourself


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» Loved Despite of Great Faults

you will move
with me we will
stay still and
words will move around us.
surround us in gold
and in our world
we will be
silent.

you will swim
to me we will
be free
and words will move around us
swim around us
surround us in schools
and in our cool
we'll be reminded.

that you refuse to fade away
i hide to stay the same
where do we go from here
i don't know.

for me you flower to be chosen
i fall down to be noticed
where do we go from here i don't know.

it was a time
a way of life
the only secrets
we talked about
were all the fears
in all these years
we spent together


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» This Is Not

Once she loved a boy. But he did not love her.
His name was Jun. Disillusioned she tried to forget.
So she left everything & traveled to the other side of the world.
But life was like a dream.
A series of meaningless movement.

And then by chance she met you & your brother.
The moment she saw you.
She knew you were made for her.

You're never out of her thoughts. She sees only you.

If it was yesterday he'd felt free just like her
He could have been with her
But today can't be anymore
Tomorrow maybe yes. But today he is not there.

I heard someone say
That mind keeps wondering from desire to contempt
From contempt to desire
Never ever feeling bored. Cause we think we are free.
I think it's so pathetic. Don't you ?
Were you listening to me. No not even one word.

I heard someone say that mind keeps wondering
Life is like a dream. A series of meaningless movement.
I heard someone say
Let's go to the other world
Because we think we are free. A series of meaningful
Movement

La la la


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» A Cure

Everybody knows him he is a pleaser
Nothing else than just a teaser
Teaser of his own faint smile

Yes and how he is so amusing
Smiling can be so consuming
And so strange to explain

Oh I know how I think I might
Have known of you somehow and
What your name was

Lke another man in many ways he is not
Like life itself a mystery or two
Hey Mr. Pleaser can you smile for me

Yes and how many times he hasn't
Spoken just to please not to displease
Please her if you please

Oh I know how his life resembles
Yours and you somehow are like him.
I see I have been too good for you
You know he is like me
Pleasing you and now, and now all
You do is wish I was more and more like him
If so would you consider keeping me
closer I know, I know if I was ...

He turns his head and doesn't see you
But when he does he looks and greets you
how are you and good luck !!

And so I call myself a pleaser
This time sitting on a secret
One secret now everybody knows


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» For the Damaged

Maybe again he will be alone
Guess we're equally damaged
Find your name do it all the same equally
Signal when you can't breathe no more

Say you were me then you could see the view
You'll know we are equally damaged
Don't be a fool, make it easier
You'll learn to say when
Signal if you can't say, "no more"

Don't cross your finger
Sundays will never change
They keep on coming
You'll be a freak
And I'll keep you company


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» Mother

You pay for that. You're wrong if you think it was a loan.
I'm on to you. You're fading out. You wrong if you think I'm alone.
I will never fall.


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» For The Damaged CODA

Am I?
Am I to be paid?