1. UGLY SIDE

I must have sneezed
On knees I freeze
I mean I just choked up
Somehow I slept
I dream, I mean
I dreamt of nothing
I'm able to breathe
A sweet relief
Now that you're here for me
A northern degree
Dove into me
Now I'm recovering

Chorus:

I only want you to see
My favorite part of me
And not my ugly side
And not my ugly side
Ugly side

So hook up a C.B. wave
A way for conversation flow
I'm shown to your cage
To wage this rage
Don't let me go
A kick and a scream
Is all that seems to mean
A lot thus far
I won't let you on my stage, my page
You can't know
Yet you have to know

Chorus:

And I only want you to see
My favorite part of me
And not my ugly side
And not my ugly side
Ugly Side

So calm
And it's cold

And now it's dark
I look for you to light my heart
I'm between the moon and where you are
I know I can't be far

2. CLUMSY CARD HOUSE

By the way
By your side I'll stay
If that's OK
Then by your side I'll stay forever

Chorus:

Here I'm standing up
Because I want to fall in love with you

A sunless day
It was a clumsy card house rape
If that's OK
Well then by your side I'll stay forever

Chorus:

Here I'm standing up
Because I want to fall in love
Forever
Here I'm standing up
Because I want to fall

And our kids could play
A sunless day
The rain would come
The rain always brings our heroes
And our kids could play
A sunless day
The rain would come
The rain always brings our heroes
Believe in heroes

By the way
By your side I'll stay
If that's OK
Then by your side I'll stay forever
Yeah, I said forever

3. RAZORBLADE

In the day by day collision
Called the art of growing up
There's an innocence we look for in the stars
To be taken back to younger days
When there was no giving up
On the people we held closest to our hearts

Yeah it is you that I remember in that glowing
It is you that took my first away from me
It is you I set my standards to
To every walk of life
I haven't met another you since you were with me

Chorus:

Sing with me!
A brief bout with a razorblade cut me
I freaked out, thinking people didn't love me
I watched closely as the you I knew forgot me
In letting go, I am so proud of what I've done
Yeah

And in a way I failed religion
Spit the wine from mouth to cut
I reached for something more than just your God
Uncle, you spared not your children
And while your praying hands were up
There's no forgiveness for you, you sick fuck

Because it is you that I remember in their bedroom
It is you that took their first away from them
It is you they set their standards to
You wounded them for life
You were a preacher and supposed
Tto be above men

Chorus:

Sing with me!
A brief bout with a razorblade cut me
I freaked out, thinking people didn't love me
I watched closely as the you I knew forgot me
In letting go, I am so proud of what I've done

I tried
I tried to let it go
I want to be proud
Proud
I want to be proud!

4. CALLING YOU

There's something that I can't quite explain
I'm so in love with you
You'll never take that away
And if I said a hundred times before
Expect a thousand more
You'll never take that away

Well expect me to be
Calling you to see
If you're OK when I'm not around
Asking if you love me
I love the way you make it sound
Calling you to see
Do I try too hard to make you smile?
To make us smile?

Chorus:

Well I will keep calling you to see
If you're sleeping are you dreaming
If you're dreaming are you dreaming of me?
I can't believe you actually picked me

I thought that the world had lost it's sway
(It's so hard sometimes)
Then I fell in love with you
(Then came you)
And you took that away
(It's not so difficult, the world is not so difficult)
You take away the old, show me the new
And I feel like I can fly when I stand next to you
So while I'm on this phone
A hundred miles from home
I'll take the words you gave and send them back to you

I only wanna see
If you're OK when I'm not around
Asking if you love me
I love the way you make it sound
Calling you to see
Do I try to hard to make you smile?
To make us smile

5. CHAMELEON BOY

I change my color for you
I shed my coat with caution
I lack the beauty you display
See here they are the bruises
And some were self-inflicted
And some showed up along the way
So I nod my head
I'm ready for the world to see
The secret I kept here inside
The man you thought I'd be
Slip into coma calm
The coma where I calm myself down
Here comes excuses
Why I let you down

Chorus:

Stand by for another breakdown
Sound off the alarm
Is this the chameleon boy
I swore I wouldn't become?
Chameleon boy
Chameleon boy

So now we've come upon
The hardest thing I've ever done
It's telling you that I'm a mess
What sort of mess, I mean
A self-destructive gasoline
The kind that strips you of your best
And while I play instead
The way that most would end up dead
You sleep alone at home
And wish that I were in our bed
With this I'm telling you
My color changes back to blue
How do I ask you this?
Will you help me through?

Chorus:

Stand by for another breakdown
Sound off the alarm
Is this the chameleon boy
I swore I wouldn't become?
Chameleon boy
Chameleon boy

I try to think of all the people I looked up to
While growing up, who would I be?
Now the twisted part: where did all my idols end up?
They all passed away
Passed away

6. SEXUAL POWERTRIP (ONE BIG LIE) BLA BLA

It began
And ended with one big lie!

I'm sorry for the way I treated you
I'm stuck in my ways to just run
In the opposite way when things get comfortable
I'll keep on licking till your flavor is gone

Chorus:

But it's getting more impossible
To keep a straight face and be trusted with
I love you
(One big lie)
Yes, I love you
(Bla bla bla, bla bla bla, bla bla bla, bla bla bla)

So don't trust my words when I'm in bed with you
I'll bring the message but the message gets lost
Yeah you opened your legs
And maybe I promised you
You didn't notice that my ankles were crossed

Chorus:

But it's getting more impossible
To keep a straight face and be trusted with
I love you

Can you show me how to treat someone?
I don't recall ever learning how
I keep fucking up
Cause I keep fucking up

7. QUIET MIND

A slow strangle with your feet on the floor
I've got fourteen angels and we're sleeping alone
In the back of a cave where the rest of us go
To feel normal
I call baby up, leave me alone
I'm in pain but I won't let you band-aid my wound
I am mad at a stage where I can't seem
To handle my own

Chorus:

You give me a quiet mind
And I, I love you
You give me a quiet mind
And I, I love you
Until the end
Until the end

Give me strength to be kind, to combine
All the good things in life that are so hard to find
But I have, and I won't let them go like I do
With my friends
My friends
Still hearing voices from front, from behind
They're the reason I choose
When to live, how to die
When to cast, when to reel
When to buy, when to steal
And when to fiend for the friends
That taught you being inappropriate will

Chorus:

You give me a quiet mind
And I, I love you
You give me a quiet mind
And I, I love you
Until the end
Until the end

I keep fucking up!

8. THREE WEEKS, SHE SLEEPS

For three weeks, she sleeps
Through the rain
I've gotta try to keep her dry
Run out of ways
Self books, love cooks
Steal her away
It's who you know and where you go
All in a day
So la di da, la di da, ah ah

9. INNER GLOW

I'm like a storm cloud, eager when you go wild
Calm again, I ask permission for the wrong to win
Drop the bomb and get your story out
And get it on
In a haze the beginning of your days
Gonna fall back down
Gonna get back up but at your own pace
Gonna fill your cup
And find your way out of your own maze
Yeah, boy, what you said now
And hide the rule book, throw it in the waste
Look strong, like you belong
Cause you do belong
Whether right or wrong, you belong

Cause I'm on your side
If you fail at least you tried
To keep your aching, celebrating,
Wondermaking heart alive
Yeah, and pride, don't keep it all inside
Don't keep your aching, celebrating
Wondermaking heart alone
Write your own song

Chorus:

Whatever happened to our inner glow?
Whatever happened to the song, the soul
The me I used to know?
Whatever happened to our radio?
Whatever happened to my song?
It is my song

So here's the preview, shove it under old/new
And call it rock, or pop, or Bach, or...fuck!
Goddamn, where did we go wrong?
Now there's a category for every song
Yeah we only wanna sing when we want to
Yeah we only wanna dream we can flaunt to
Yeah we only wanna fly by the side
Making love to the rhythm, be a Jekyll and a Hyde
Yeah we only wanna field we can run through
Yeah we only wanna beat we can drum to
Yeah we only wanna fly by the side
Making love to the rhythm, be a Jekyll and a Hyde

So stride
If you fail at least you tried
To keep your aching, celebrating
Wondermaking heart alive
And pride, don't keep it all inside
Don't keep your aching, celebrating
Wondermaking heart alone
Write your own song

Chorus:

Whatever happened to our inner glow?
Whatever happened to the song, the soul
The me I used to know?
Whatever happened to our radio?
Whatever happened to the song?

Gonna wake up strong
Yeah we're all gonna wake up strong
Gonna wake up strong
Yeah we're all gonna wake up strong
Gonna wake up strong
Yeah we're all gonna wake up strong
Yeah, write your song!
Gonna wake up strong
Yeah we're all gonna wake up strong
Gonna wake up strong
We're all gonna wake up strong
Gonna wake up strong
Yeah, we're writing our own song!

(Yeah we only wanna sing when we want to
Yeah we only wanna dream we can flaunt to
Yeah we only wanna fly by the side
Making love to the rhythm, be a Jekyll and a Hyde)

Whatever happened to our inner glow?
(Yeah we only wanna beat we can drum to)
Whatever happened to the song, the soul
The me I used to know?
Whatever happened to my radio?
(Yeah we only wanna dream we can flaunt to)
Whatever happened to the song?
(Making love to the rhythm, be a Jekyll and a Hyde)

10. SOMEBODY

So you dropped me
Held me by my feet and let me go
I fell between the seat but nothing broke
I've yet to feel that brilliant afterglow
The one I knew of years ago
And now I'm twisted
I'm twisted from the waist and spun around
Promised only sky but given ground
I realize that make-up's for a clown
The clown I knew of months ago

Chorus:

I only wanted to be somebody
So fucking bad, I came unglued
I only wanted to be somebody
And now here we are, yeah
Face to face and I'm fucking you

So you caught me
Wishing I were better than the rest
You hit me and left bruises on my chest
And when I wouldn't cheat I spit upon your test
The test I tore up weeks ago
And now my fist is
My fist is for your face to cock the jaw
When I begin to rise, you start to fall
Now you know how it feels to drop the ball
The ball I threw back days ago

Chorus:

I only wanted to be somebody
So fucking bad, I came unglued
I only wanted to be somebody
And now here we are, yeah
Face to face and I'm fucking you

So I'll just stand right here for now
I should have won, but how?
I break a smart-ass grin
Who let the loser win?
Let's break a smart-ass grin
Let's let the loser win

Chorus:

I only wanted to be somebody
So fucking bad, I came unglued
I only wanted to be somebody
And now here we are, yeah
Face to face and I'm fucking you

11. COME IN CLOSER

And the first born, my heart will call Truly
A God-like boy of the sky
The fog hissed away like a movie
And serpents go home for the night
The thundercloud rain hits the freeway
And the clowns put on make-up for show
The nightfall, my skin crawl kind of evening
Yeah, how the wind she blows
And how the wind she blows

Chorus:

Cause I want you to come in closer
Come in closer, come in closer
Come in closer, come in closer, come in closer
Come in closer, in closer

Come dancing with devils
Need not know their name
But we'll waltz like an army
For the fear of our pain
Our souls become useless
As the day that they were born
In a rusted arm rocking chair
Away from your storm

But still the truth remains lethal
A lie made by man
When my shoes become hammers
And my words become sand
Like a sour patch, a wedding batch
Of roses you threw across my floor
In the rusted arm rocking chair
Away from your storm

Chorus:

I want you to come in closer
Come in closer, come in closer
Come in closer, come in closer, come in closer
Come in closer, in closer
Yeah, I want you to
Come in closer, come in closer, come in closer
Come in closer, come in closer, come in closer
Come in closer (in closer)

(You cheated on me, because I was blind)

12. AMAZING

How am I supposed to breathe?
I try to relax, I touch your still frame
So I can watch you closer
And study the ways I believe I belong to you
(To you...so I)
I scratch at your waistline, your doll hair
I dig up the thought of how your eyes glow
So I make my religion, my collision, my escape goat
So have I found your secret weak spot, baby?

Chorus:

Can you pretend I'm amazing?
I can pretend I'm amazing
Instead of what we both know
Instead of what we both know
I cut to the punchline, baby
Can we pretend I'm amazing?
Instead of what be both know

And now our history is for sale
And for that I apologize
You see, you're my only know-how
The study of when I believed I belonged to you
(To you)
You see I've made you into
Smething more delicious
My sweet ghost
So have found your secret weak spot, baby?

Chorus:

Can you pretend I'm amazing?
I can pretend I'm amazing
Instead of what we both know
Instead of what we both know
I cut to the punchline, baby
Can we pretend I'm amazing?
Instead of what be both know

(I'm sorry
Sorry
There it goes
Back over there)