1. STIMULATION

Others cry for help
Just like it would change anything
Lunatics find no conclusion
Bodies simply gliding
Figures draw wildest illusions
Drag me in their draft
My back so strong like thousand reptiles
My fingers reach for miles
Perversion finds its roots within our hearts
Some-body dares to love
Fingertips touch so many bodies
Motionless accepted
Lips regret so many kisses
Whispered words just as well
Mistaken seem my careful moves
Misunderstood my choice of words
Psycho-logically seen
I prefer this kind of stimulation


2. BIRD WITOUHT WINGS II

This bird so crippled - little bird
Just wants to learn to fly - Longing for the sky
Tell me fellow - sufferer - Tear apart my fate
Who broke them and why - Just another try

Tar-stained feathers - broken wings
Preachers rise your hands - Like shattered pride
Now life can be damn boring - Hunted, wanted
With your eyes raised to the sky-dancing-wild

Sophistication - Heaven , sky
Sophistication - Tell me why ?
Sophistication - Heaven, sky
Sophistication - No wings to fly

Circles, vicious circles - Faith and fate
As the wind denies my wish - Belief and doubts
How can you leave me here ? - Struggling helpless
I'm missing what's still there - Between the clouds

Broken wings - Heaven, sky
With remains of reflexes - Attempt, temptations
Trying to lift me up - Helpless cries
Far beyond the clouds - And falling nations


3. DISSOLUTION

What can I say ?
What can I do ?
Why can I face this world ?
In which I must endure

Intimate compulsion
"Legitimate" , you say
But nothing ever prospers
If not the thought is noble

I'm not alone
But still lonely
What else eludes my eyes
Distracted fingers

Regarding others
However impressive words might be
Do they distract me ?
Consider me demented ?!

Disposess my secrets
In a concept hidden well
See my silhouettes in absence
Alive as body swell

In dissolution
Dissolution

Absorbing life from others
Like sucking from a straw
Abstracted methods fear the truth
Dissolving what may last

Melting life in naked hands
Eyes now open
Rebellious hearts delivered
As a gift of a good friend

In dissolution
Dissolution


4. JUNE

Now I'm living life without you
And I'm waiting to hear you grasp for air
June lies hidden in those ruins of your eyes
Have you seen me stumble in this demented world ?
June you've lost your colour
Could one stray under your wings
Liberty, a word I read once in a book
Frozen roses, as a gift to your content
I figured I could risk this stupid absolution
O' disillusioned, I'm face to face with silence
Your quivering breath, too weak to survive
What a shame, we never spoke a word
Liberty, a word I read once in a book
Frozen roses, as a gift to your content
Icicle-rain pounding on my head
Images demand to take a smile for granted
Tomorrow is always the first day of
The end of your life


5. APHELION

My daddy ask for secrets
My mother doesn't care
To hide the hidden
Deep inside
And while I sleep
Shivering faces
In candle-light
Lose their names
Affected sympathy
Victim or witness
While fathers
Betray themselves
I hear your selfish words
Whispers of support
I feel your touch
Shivering too much
O' Aphelion
See my fear is gone
I tasted grapes of wrath
Just funny how the sparrows die
While eagles fly
So way up, so high
My daddy asks for secrets
My mother doesn't care
But who cares to see
Who I one day may be
And I still belong
Where my cradle once has been
I still belong
Where I was born with grapes of wrath
O' Aphelion
See my fear is gone
I tasted grapes of wrath
See my fear is gone
See the damage done on me


6. BUT THE WINF WAS STRONGER

Wind o' carry me away
Guide my angels -unlink their chains
Words find echoes in my past
My delusion now unmasked
I dare to touch this bodies surface
Temptation blinding my resistance
I could linger so much longer
But the wind was stronger
Yes I know my eyes are sinning
Longing for what is not mine
Defend her purity with mercy
Thread my guts, cut off my tongue
Merge my conflict with the wind
Mesmerise my childish instincts
Then I will not suffer any longer
But still the wind was stronger
My puppets, angels, dolls and she
Starring, whispering at me
Ready to drop - in chains paralysed
On naked skin I feel their glares
Embarrassed of what they might see
I cannot speak, I cannot think
Scared to death I move no longer
Yes, I guess the wind was stronger


7. A SINNER'S INSTINCT

I called you sinner's
I was wrong

Inaccurate intention
Should have said you're sorry
Might have reduced the conflict
But tough, admit it's said

God's creation
To put your blame on
God's creation
To turn away from

Appreciate those hands you're given
Before you really need to beg for them
Try to understand my incantation
Out of breath, your fingers shiver

Apocalyptically divided
Mentally disturbed they call me
Respect instead of affection
Disclaim that I am one of you

Can I fall down from the stars
Can I rise up from hell

Absurd - Your protest avoids the consequences
How can you cheat yourself ?
Ridiculous - to see you smile
Knowing you'd prefer to cry !


8. EX-ILE

Now sit - sucker - and beg for mercy
I saved your life a million times
Why serve if you can rule yourself ?
So sceptical of my existence
My mutation-gently gliding - switched to normal
So desperate, so sincere like a child
O` I can't see my face in any mirrors
Fanatically I'm moving on...into

Ex-ile exploited - Humiliation costs

Deceitful
Disgustful
But words can never change the facts

Distrustful
Disrespectful
But fanatics never lose their trace

Your enemies surround your kingdom
Your disciples in defeat
Come home, we'll welcome you with laughter
And your longing turns concrete

Reject the courts decision
Sweat pearls gliding, as the judge regains the word
Put blame on your breast until it bursts apart
or choose to vegetate ... into

Ex-ile exploited - Humiliation costs


9. LEGENDS

Call viper's son
Fear the suns of my horizons
Sequential movements in reverse
Paradise denies its treasure

A higher dose regains the silence
"Ambiguous", the wiseman said
Virgin-white my pale disguise
The traitor is still alive

Legends rise
And Legends falls
Little lies
As we know all

Eyes - a stare and I don't care
Milk glass distorts my view
Deliver me to my reality
You cannot kill, what cannot die

Avoid the touch of my cold body
Avoid to fall into my eyes
Creatures shiver and preachers lie
My legend's not a lullaby

So unfair, as this life is


10. FLOOD OF TEARS

Mother see, that all my life
I planted flowers to survive
And as they faded I stopped to speak
I painted flowers
and nobody knows why.....

No awakening, no lullaby
I only felt the need to try
To have the guts or the stupidity
To grab for stars, that I can't reach at all

Father see, that I have tried
To find that angel deep inside
That you once promised I would meet
And once again I ended in defeat

Even here I could feel your eyes
Heard your whispers and felt your eyes
Brother said "Come back to life"
I asked some friends
and nobody knew why .....

Nobody had ever seen
my flood of tears
I can't believe you found me here

It took some time to find these words
I wrote them down in hope that they might help
Watch me walk barefoot on glass
Insecure as only a newborn child can be

Others came to laugh at me
They pointed fingers as I could see
Believe me saying it's not the skin
It's the stranger living deep inside

Mother see, that all my life
I painted flowers to survive
And as they faded I stopped to paint
I fell asleep
and nobody knows why.....

Father see, that I have tried
To build a world with only me inside
Millions of flowers surround my bed
Now I still grab for stars and I can reach them all