1. PARALYZER

I hold on so nervously
To me and my drink
I wish it was cooling me
But so far, has not been good
It's been shitty
And I feel awkward, as I should
This club has got to be
The most pretentious thing
Since I thought you and me
Well I am imagining
A dark lit place
Or your place or my place

Well I'm not paralyzed
But, I seem to be struck by you
I want to make you move
Because you're standing still
If your body matches
What your eyes can do
You'll probably move right through
Me on my way to you

I hold out for one more drink
Before I think
I'm looking too desperately
But so far has not been fun
I should just stay home
If one thing really means one
This club will hopefully
Be closed in three weeks
That would be cool with me
Well I'm still imagining
A dark lit place
Or your place or my place

Well, I'm not paralyzed
But, I seem to be struck by you
I want to make you move
Because you're standing still
If your body matches
What your eyes can do
You'll probably move right through
Me on my way to you

Well, I'm not paralyzed
But, I seem to be struck by you
I want to make you move
Because you're standing still
If your body matches
What your eyes can do
You'll probably move right through
Me on my way to you

I'm not paralyzed
But, I seem to be struck by you
I want to make you move
Because you're standing still
If your body matches
What your eyes can do
You'll probably move right through
Me on my way to you

You'll probably move right through
Me on my way to you

You'll probably move right through
Me on my way to you


2. FALLING ON

When you feel so close to some resolve
And you write the words you were writing for
But your courage gets dissolved
Into what, I don't know...

When you feel that way again
You have to stop your thinking
And think of what you're here for
And let the rest of your feelings go

[Chorus]
You've got to find your balance
You've got to realize
You've got to try to find what's right before your eyes
And if you find you've fallen
And all your grace is gone
Just scream for me and I'll be what you're falling on

When you feel so close to some resolve
And you say the things that you're standing for
Don't let your courage get dissolved
Cause it's then that the fear grows

[Chorus]

Just give me the word and I will be there

Just give me the words that I've been living for
Just tell me the things you might have felt before
It's do or die -- this is either/or
Just give me the word and I will be there
Just give me the word and I will be there

[Chorus] (x2)


3. I'LL KEEP YOUR MEMORY VAGUE

This won't break your heart
But I just think it could
Cause I haven't tried as hard as I should
To separate you from everything I do
But I would never want to come between us two

I'll keep your memory vague
So you won't feel bad about me
I'll say the things that you said
Sometimes so it reminds me

Now I'm thinking back
To what I said before
I hope your heart won't have to hurt anymore
Cause it's really not that sad from here
Because the moments I can feel you near
They keep you close to me my dear
And if they ever become too clear...

Now you've gone away
Don't worry it's ok
That you're gone away
Further than yesterday
But you'll never leave these scenes
My mind replays

Where in the world have you gone now ?


4. LOST MY WAY

I'm bound to wander where
All of your glitter's going
But I'm so far from knowing
And none of my instincts showing
Kick in, kick in
I'm screaming from outside in
Tell me where I've been
There's nowhere to return to out there

I think I've lost my way
But that's just not news today
Because the story's old
The black and white
Have gone to grey
The story's old
The black and white
Have gone to grey
And you were right
Cause I finally lost my way


5. SO SO SUICIDE

I felt the blisters
Below the words
A universe waiting to explode

And I felt the words crawl out of my skull
And now you know
Exactly what you should

Don't bother pretending I seem fine
I like that I'm a mess
I can't stand it much longer in my head
I think it's time for bullets

Became so-so suicidal
And now I know the ugly from the good

Don't bother pretending I seem fine
I like that I'm a mess
I can't stand it much longer in my head
I think it's time for bullets

Don't bother pretending I seem fine
I'm trying to confess
I can't stand it much longer in my head
But it's not time for bullets


6. WINDOW SONG

All the windows are playing their game
Where I won't see outside again
Til I write all the fog away
I'm putting words in their place
Between me and the window's pane
From my inarticulate brain
But all of the fog is erased
When I write all the words that I never said
To you

Now the impulse won't go away
"Distracted by something ?" you'd say
Cause you don't see anything
It's just between windows and me
Wait til it rains again
And I write all the words that I never said
To you

Will you try to read these lines ?
Focus hard and give it time
Who you are in my life
Reads as the water washes

Now the dirt on the window is showing
I should have drawn something instead
The dirt on the window is showing
I should never have written my head
I should never have written what I never said
To you


7. SENSE OF A SPARK

Let other words fail
I don't find it fair.
But anyway
This little string keeps on pulling
So I gotta pull myself down some different path
Inside my mind
Needs out
I wanna trip myself away
But I better wait I better wait I better wait

I get the sense of a spark so I follow
"I don't believe that she knows something I know"
I tell myself as I stay in the shadow
I tell myself not to go, but I go
Needing to see
Whichever way she's going

If there's any way
So far from here
There's little fear
Her words could ever hurt me
I Don't want to wait.
Don't want to wait.
Don't want to wait I...

Don't look don't talk don't yell
Just close your eyes
This may or may not come
As some surprise
I've found obsessions
Which to live and die by
Don't look don't talk don't yell
Just close your eyes


8. TALKING TO THE WALLS

No hostage has been held like I've
Been holding mine but I'm just fine
Since I've been without you
No prisoner could climb the walls
That I've built up in my mind
Since I've been without you

But I'm holding down and out
I'm desperate without you

Look at the shape I'm in
Talking to the walls again
Look at the state I'm in

Bent and broken is all I've been
No universal truth this time
No other universe but mine
Could ever feel as unaligned
Since I've been without you
No instances from time to time
Feel like things will turn out right
Since I've been without you

No universal truth this time
There's no universe for you and I
And there's no one to make me realize


9. CHANGE THE WORLD

I just want the best for you girl
But I don't think I really know
what that means
I know you bring the best out of me
and I know you're sick
of abstract things
But time has been kind
in a weird kind of way
Cause I've been waiting for this feeling to leave
If I can hold onto this feeling this long
Maybe I can get you to hold me

Don't you believe, girl
You'll change the world
At least you changed the world for me

I won't be sorry if you leave me girl
Cause I'm the world's biggest fan of clich©s
I'll set you free then I'll love like I'm not
Hurting in the world's worst ways

But I don't know if I can make it alone
And I don't have much more left to lose
I can't say for sure just where I'll end up
I just want to end up there with you

When the darkness never ends
And my world's crashing in
And it starts to turn again
Will you believe ?

When I won't get over you
And my world splits in two
When I just can't make it through
Will you believe ?


10. GATHER & GIVE

I would give anything that's worth giving
I would say any line
To try to get you nearer to me
But you've never been one
To love being lied to
And this artificial side
Just makes me disappear from you

So I'm gathering up the truth
And I've giving it all to you
If it's the last thing I do
Cause I won't be free till I give it all to you
There's nothing more I can do
Cause I won't be free...

It's not as heavy as it seems
All I'm saying
You don't have to drag it out
Kicking and screaming
When it finally comes
I hope you hear me
Then whatever chains us down
Becomes whatever sets us free

So I'm gathering up the truth
And I'm giving it all to you
If it's the last thing I do
Cause I won't be free till I give it all to you

Yeah I'm gathering up the truth
And I'm giving it all to you
There's nothing more I can do
Cause I won't be free...

It's not as easy as you make it sound
Not even when I try to sound it out
I try my best to make it come around
But it's not that easy for me


11. THEM .VS. YOU .VS. ME

We left and as soon as we did I knew
There was a bad taste in our mouths
Awareness didn't come too soon
But you finally tasted it too
It's just another case of fucking up
A perfectly good afternoon
Every manner that I forgot
Could have helped me out of acting cruel

But I wasn't in the least distraught
Though my jokes were bombing
I got to feeling like my timing was off
But baby that's just not me

So as far as anyone can see
They'd be helpless not to agree
They're driving miles between us three
It was them versus you versus me

And as soon as we drove right through
30 seconds without a word
It was then that I knew for sure
I wasn't gonna hear a word from you

And the road became the radio
And we scowled at the beautiful trees
I was thinking of what went wrong
I thought baby it's not just me.


12. EASY LIFE

If I were the betting kind I bet you thought the easy life
Was the one you thought you'd live by
And all you had to do was decide
A swimming pool size
Well, you're right

I wish there was an ending to spoil
So as long as I'm thinking
How about a great tragedy ?
Where I imagine fire and glass and taillights blinking
We'll see.

And if I was the betting kind I bet you thought the easy life
Was the one you thought you'd live by
All you had to do was decide
A swimming pool size
Well, you're right

I wish there was an ending to spoil
So as long as I'm thinking
About a horrible scene
Where I can watch your hopes and your dreams
Just blow into pieces
Before me ?

Is there something to learn
Or something to see ?
Because nothing to lose
Is not nothing to be

Haven't you
Heard the messages
Haven't you
Read the passages
There's a ghost who
Is going to haunt me for all my life
I'll bet he never touches you

I guess the differences
Between us 3-
They make our open books awful hard to read

Maybe I've
Been painting you
With all the wrong brushes too
Maybe you
Really know
What too much is, well...
Well maybe you do

I wish there was an ending to spoil
So as long as I'm thinking
How about a great tragedy ?
Where I imagine fire and glass and taillights blinking
We'll see.

Because nothing to lose is not nothing to be
Because nothing to lose is not nothing to me