1. THE DIVES (LAZARUS IN ASHES)

the dives

you bend and pull
you push and tear
you scratch and poke
you feed the air
you bend and pull
you push and tear
there is flesh and bone
and nothing here

dont want to be a savior
dont want to be a thorn
dont want to be reborn


2. DOWNWARD YEARS TO COME

downward years to come

glassy reveries
fire filled yesterdays
we are the bleeded ones,
the worlds forgotten sons
sit between my lips
more death then life in our breath
we don't gaze at gods,
the gods gaze at us.

watching roses sleep
blackened cloud of graves
in a harvest of stars
heaven seems so far


crawling in the depths, leaping from above
one hour to the next, downward years to come


3. MINE IS CLOUDS

mine is clouds

i lived in your garden of flames
all colored with gray
every flower was made to fall
they bloom to decay

its time Id lie down
just to rest my head
and ill be fine now
i burned myself down with the bridge

wont get to see the day you said
you wish you knew me
ill leave the sun and moon to you
while i am sleeping

its time Id lie down
just to rest my head
and ill be fine now
i burned myself down with the bridge

if we don't find out
What we can endure
then we will find out
the life we lived
is nothing more
than the life we lived
i burned myself down with the bridge


4. IF ONLY

if only

the summer air will slowly drag you down
and never let you up
lied in an ocean but you never drowned
now own a salty tongue

turn on the lights
you see
the darkness always finds you
sit against this tree
and wait
for something to look forward to

old sorrows that will stir again ignite
into light in pale suns

turn on the lights
you see
the darkness always finds you
Sit against this tree
and wait
for something to look forward to
"and so they go
and die
the same way they always lived"

you live
you might
you lose
in spite
theres no end in sight

theres got to be a way to fade away
theres gotta be an end


5. THE RITES OF LOVE AND DEATH

the rites of love and death

thought you would see
thought you would believe
what a mistake
to forget that we break

and we are pain
waiting to scream "no more"
and we are words
some whispered pact we swore

your copper chain
your cheap golden ring
never could hide
your flesh still turns green

no help for us
theres no safe haven
search for a place
you can't be saved in

and i wish that all would disappear
ive fallen in love with the darkness and fear
and i wish the world would disappear
ive fallen in love with the darkness and fear
and i wish that i would disappear
ive fallen in love with the darkness and fear