The Everlasting Gaze

You know I'm not dead
You know I'm, you know I'm not dead
You know I'm not dead
You know I'm not dead

Now you know where I've been
As you sleep, shine I am
Waiting down patiently
Born of love

You know I'm, you know I'm not dead
I'm just living in my head
Forever waiting on the ways of your desire
You always find your way

And through it all, into us all you move
Forgotten touch, forbidden thought
We can never, ever know

You know I'm not dead
You know I'm, you know I'm not dead
You know I'm not dead
You know I'm not dead

Down below the creatures scream
Strangehold of God's machines
Begging to tear us out
Torn is hope

You know I'm, you know I'm not dead
I'm just the tears inside your head
Forever waiting on the ways of your desire
You always find a way

And through it all, into us all you move
Forgotten touch, forbidden thought
We can never, ever know

You know I'm not dead

We all want to hold in the everlasting gaze
Enchanted in the rapture of his sentimental sway
But underneath the wheels lie the skulls of every cog
The fickle fascination of an everlasting God

You know I'm not dead
I'm just living in my head
Forever waiting, forever waiting a cruel death

You know I'm not dead
I'm just living for myself
Forever waiting

You know I'm not dead
You know I'm not dead
You know I'm not dead
You know I'm not dead

Raindrops + Sunshowers


Rain falls on everyone
The same old rain
And I'm just trying to walk with you
Between the raindrops

I send my echo out
To get your love without
Obscured reflections of my love

Rain falls on everyone
The same old rain
And I'm just trying to walk with you
Between the raindrops

I'll save a prayer for you
So lost and longing to
Be dragged through dirty streets
Wrapped up in clean white sheets
And if you think they'll watch you now
You should know they won't

Rain falls on everyone
The same old rain
And I'm just trying to walk with you
Between the raindrops
And I'm just trying to walk with you
Between the raindrops

I send my echo out
To get your love without
Obscured reflections of
Of my secret love
Force down the words about
To get your love without
Obscured reflections of my love

And I'm just trying to walk with you
Between the raindrops

Rain falls on everyone
The same old rain
And I'm just trying to walk with you
Between the raindrops

Rain falls on everyone
The same old rain
And I'm just trying to walk with you
Between the raindrops
And I'm just trying to walk with you
Between the raindrops

Stand Inside Your Love


You love me, meant to be
Immutable, impossible
It's destiny, pure lunacy
Incalculable, insufferable
But for the last time
You're everything that I want and ask for
You're all that I dream

Who wouldn't be the one you love?
Who wouldn't stand inside your love?
Protected and the lover of
A pure soul
And beautiful
You

Don't understand, don't feel me now
I will breathe for the both of us
Travel the world, traverse the skies
Your home is here within my heart
And for the first time
I feel as though I am reborn in my mind
Recast as child in mystic sun

Who wouldn't be the one you love?
Who wouldn't stand inside your love?

And for the first time
I'm telling you how much I need and bleed for
Your every moment
Waking sun in my time
I'll wrap my wire around your heart and you're mine
You're mine forever

Who wouldn't be the one you love? (And live for)
Who wouldn't stand inside your love? (And die for)
Who wouldn't be the one you love?

I Of The Mourning


Radio, play my favorite song
Radio, radio
Radio, I'm alone
Radio, radio
Please don't let me go, radio

I peer through curtains on empty streets
Behind a wall of caller ID
No one's out there
To hear if I care
About the troubles in the air

‘Cause I of the morning now go
Pick up where my thoughts left off
‘Cause I'm home to die on my own

As my radio plays my favorite song
Radio, radio
Radio, don't you know
Radio, radio
Radio, I'm alone

I've blown the dust off my guitar
In the attic with the stars
I read your letters to feel better
My tears upon the faded ink

‘Cause I of the morning now go
Pick up where my thoughts left off
‘Cause I'm home to die on my own

As my radio plays my favorite song
Radio, radio
Radio, don't you know
Radio, radio
Radio, I'm alone

I sit in the dark light
To wait for the ghost night
To bring the past to life
To make a toast to life
‘Cause I have survived

What is it you want?
What is it you want to change?
What is it you want?
What is it you want to change?
What is it you want to change?

Radio, radio, radio, radio
Radio, radio, radio, radio
Radio, radio, radio, radio

What is it you want?
What is it you want to change?
What is it you want?
What is it you want to change?
What is it you want to change?


The Sacred and Profane


Give me tears, give me love
Let me rest, Lord above
Send the bored, your restless
The feedback scarred, devotionless

You're all a part of me now
And if I fall
You're all a part of me now
In the sun
You're all a part of me now
You're all a part of me now

Will our love ever be enough?
Just in time to prove
Will our words ever be enough?
Just in time to lose

Give me sight and barren breast
Pure snow and happiness
Give me time, give me peace
And I will prove my release

You're all a part of me now
And if I fall
You're all a part of me now
Trapped in the sun
You're all a part of me now
You're all a part of me now

Will our love ever be enough?
Just in time to prove
Will our time ever be enough?
Will our love ever be enough?

You're all a part of me now
And if I fall
You're all a part of me now
In the sun
You're all a part of me now
You're all a part of me now

You're all a part of me now
And if I fall
You're all a part of me now
In the sun
You're all a part of me now

Will our love ever be enough?
Will our love ever be enough?
Will our love ever be enough?
Just in time to prove


Try, Try, Try


Pop Tart, what's our mission?
Do we know but never listen?
For too long they held me under
But I hear it's almost over
In Detroit on a Memphis train
Like you said, it's down in the heat and the summer rain
The automatic gauze of your memories
Down in the sleep at the airplane races

Try to hold on to this heart a little bit longer
Try to hold on to this love aloud
Try to hold on, for this heart's a little bit colder
Try to hold on to this love

Paperback scrawl your hidden poems
Written around the dried out flowers
Here we are, still trading places
Try to hold on

Pop Tart, can you envision
A free world of clear division?
For too long they held us under
But I know we're getting over
In Detroit with the Nashville tears
Like you said, it's down in the heat with the broken numbers
Down in the gaze of solemnity
Down in the way you've held together

Try to hold on to this heart a little bit closer
Try to hold on to this love aloud
Try to hold on, for this heart's a little bit older
Try to hold on to this love aloud

And we are still alive
Try to hold on
And we have survived
Try to hold on
And no one should deny

We tried to hold onto the pulse of the feedback current
Into the flow of encrypted movement
Slapback kills the ancient remnants
That try to hold on

Try to hold on to this heart alive
Try to hold on to this heart aloud
Try to hold on
And we are still alive
Try to hold on
And we have survived
Try to hold on

Pop Tart, you never listen
Skinned knees
Try to hold on
Stop start, what's our mission?
Skinned knees
Try to hold on


Heavy Metal Machine

If I were alive
If I were real
Would you survive?
What would you feel?

Heavy metal, heavy metal machine
Heavy metal, heavy metal machine
As sentimental as our broken dreams

Let me die for rock and roll
Let me die to save my soul
Let me die, let me die, rock and roll
Let the world forgive the past
Let all the girls kiss the boys at last
Let me go, let me go, rock and roll

Heavy metal, heavy metal machine
Heavy metal, a heavy metal machine
We're the metal in their metal machines
Heavy metal, heavy metal machine

If I were dead
Would my records sell?
Could you even tell?
Is it just as well?

Heavy metal, heavy metal machine
It's elemental to all the rust it brings
Heavy metal, heavy metal machine

Let me die for rock and roll
Let me die to save my soul
Let me die, let me die, rock and roll
Let the world forgive the past
Let all the girls kiss the boys at last
Let me go, let me go, rock and roll

Heavy metal, heavy metal machine
Heavy metal, a heavy metal machine
We're the metal in their droning schemes
Heavy metal, heavy metal machine

Will I survive?
Is it up to me?
Could you understand
That it's not yours to keep?

Heavy metal, heavy metal machine
Heavy metal, heavy metal machine
Heavy metal, heavy metal machine
Heavy metal, heavy metal machine


This Time


This time I need to know
I really must be told
If it's over
It's up to you, you know
The things you want to hold
Are in pieces

Crashing down
Crashing down again
Crashing down
Crashing down, my friends

I've got to move it on
I've got to sing my song
While I still can
Dispatch the last alarms
Hand out the last few charms
There's no surprises

Only love, yeah
Only love can win
Crashing down
Crashing down, my friends

This time I need to know
I really must be told
That it's over
I've lived my life alone
My every step foretold
To never linger
And yet it haunts me so
What we are letting go
Our spell is broken

Crashing down
Crashing down, my friends
Crashing down
Crashing down again
Only love, yeah
Only love will be enough
Yeah, only love will win

For every chemical
You trade a piece of your soul
With no return
And who you think you know
Doesn't know you at all
Their drain is needless

Someday we'll wave hello
And wish we'd never waved goodbye
To this romance
We'll drink up every line
And shoot up every word
Till there's no more

Crashing down
Crashing down, my friends
Only love
Only love can win

So cry these tears
We'll cry as all
We've held so long to fall apart
As the curtain falls
We bid you all goodnight


The Imploding Voice


Everywhere you are
Is everywhere you've been
Just lost to the beat
Punching through your skin
You don't know what to do
But still you want to crawl
All through the broken glass
That's everywhere you are

Your love must always be true
Your love must always be you

Everywhere you are
Anywhere you go
Even if you're starved
It matters what you do
But even if you've gone too far
You can follow you
Everywhere you are

And in your mind
You were alone
All this tim
With everything you were
And every smile you wore
Still locked in your heart
Everywhere you are
Everywhere you are
Every single chard

Everywhere you are
You're never too far
‘Cause anywhere you'd go
Even to the stars
All you have to do
Is play the part of who you are
The rest is up to you

Phase unwound
By yourself
Atom bomb
On the shelf unsung
Pause of light
Pulse of life
New face dawns

Everywhere you are
And everywhere you go
Even if you're down
Even if you're low
The thought of you
It's in the eyes of all
Astride a storied past
That's everywhere you are

Your love must always be true
Your love must always be you

Everywhere you are
Anywhere you go
Even if you're scarred
It's all a part of you
But ever should you put it down
You can never lose me
Everywhere you are


Glass and the Ghost Children


To the center of the earth
Or anywhere God decides
Full of fever pulling forth
We hear our call as all
To the center of the earth
As if written in
DNA is reaching out
To your frequency

I want to live
Don't want to die
I want to live
I want to try
All in prayer
Prayer in all
All are scared
Scared of all

Black rooms are calling
To men in leather coats
White labs are cooking
Up the silver ghost
The glass migrates under
Her translucent skin
And all are spiders
Wonder what we've got us in

All is you
You are all
All with you
You in all
I want to live
I don't want to die
I want to live
I want to try

“So it's all very obtuse, because it's all, like, I don't know.
So, like, I started thinking that everything I operate on is based
on what I believe God was telling me to do. God could be my intuition
or whatever, but I always assume, I always assume that the voice I
hear is the voice of God. Then I started thinking, what if I'm insane?
So I'm operating on the premise that I'm hearing the voice of God or
what I perceive to be God speaking to me or through me, but maybe I'm
completely in…so all my…demagoguery in my life about me thinking
that my life has importance, my, my…thinking that my life has
importance. My–my–my thought of it and the fact that I believe I'm
following my intuition which in and of itself may be completely false.
So then I started freaking out, thinking–of itself may be completely
false. And again this creature that believes he's acting upon heavenly
intuition but meanwhile he's totally rampant. And I started thinking
maybe this is the cause of all the negativity against–and I started
thinking maybe this is the cause of all the negativity against–and
I started thinking maybe this is the cause of all the negativity against…”

So meets the final coda of a vinyl storm
One more cherry cola to lift up her dead arms
A dream of soft focus, sunsets filters through the din
We are losing contact as she dials it in
She can hear glass calling, or is it someone that looks like him?
She eyes TV reflection, and nods a knowing look
She says it doesn't matter, she never liked her looks
I have seen a thousand fractures, I have seen everything
‘Cause knowing is its own answer, love something in a book
There's not much left to ponder, not much left to cook

As she counted the spiders, as they crawled up inside her
As she counted the spiders, as they crawled up inside her
As she counted the spiders, as they crawled up inside her
As she counted the spiders, as they crawled up inside her
As she counted the spiders, as they crawled up inside her
As she counted the spiders, as they crawled up inside her
As she counted the spiders, as they crawled up inside her


Wound


There you are, as you always were
In bathing light and naked blue
You're a part of me, eternal one
By grand design and setting sun

If you wait, I will wait
Taste, I will taste
If you love, I will love
Run, I will run
To my last breath

Last night I turned around and thought I saw myself turning
Inside the strangest dream of life, unloved and cities burning

Awake in my arms you cry unshamed
Our age of the hours while they still devour all
So take it all, I doubt if we will know it's gone
‘Cause we've been here since time began

Begged God awake and make these plans
Wound opens, reveal this broken man
And soon there's notions of blood on his hands

If you wait, I will wait
Taste, I will taste
If you love, I will love
Run, I will run
To my last breath

Last night I turned around and thought I saw myself turning
Last night I turned around and thought I watched the world ending
Inside the crushing down I felt a pang, the tide was turning

Destroyed in the wake
The jealous ingrates
Who'll tear this world down
To spite God above
With his own love
With his own love

If you wait, if you wait
If you wait, I will wait
Taste, I will taste
If you love, I will love
Run, I will run
To my last breath


The Crying Tree of Mercury


This is the song I've been singing my whole life
I've been waiting like a knife
To cut open your heart
And bleed my soul into you
I did it all for you
You and you and you and you

This is the sound I've been making my whole life
I've been waiting for this night
To clear up all the talk
Although I'm selfish to a fault
Is it selfish it's you I want?
You, I did it all for you

This love will stand as long as you
There's really no excuse
I did it all for you

These are the tears I've been crying my whole life
Like an ocean of desire
I'm reaching through the noise
Across the dusk of time
Within the lilting lies
I am singing out to you


With Every Light


Taking over, we're taking over
Throw the weight up off your shoulders now
That we can show our love

It's almost over, it's almost over
No more war and no more soldiers
To stand against his love

Away with all the troubles that you've made
Away with waiting for another day
Away

Look ma, the sun is shining on me
Impatient in love and aching to be
Could you believe in heaven
If heaven was all you had?

We're taking over, we're taking over
Throw away your four-leafed clovers
And stand beside this love

Away with everything you've grown to hate
Away with everything that holds you safe
Away

And every light I've found
Is every light that's shining down on me
Every light light I've found
Is every light that's shining down on me
Every light I've found
Is every light that's shining down on me
I'm never alone

Look ma, the sun is shining on me
Taking my time to do as I please
Could you believe in heaven
If heaven was all you had?

The sun is beaming, radiating
All the love we are creating
We are creating

And every light I've found
Is every light that's shining down on me
Every light light I've found
Is every light that's shining down on me
Every light I've found
Is every light that's shining down on me
Every light I've found
Is every light that's shining down on me
I'm never alone


Blue Skies Bring Tears


Unleash the Armageddon
So all the children go to heaven
I sit by quiet still
With their pictures on my eyes
You'll draw the guns you're given
Write down the words as written
And never disturb the presence
Of resurrection crutch

And it's about time
It's about drawing near
Blue skies bring tears
Blue skies bring tears
Blue skies bring tears

Descend the darkened stairways
Make hate with plastic playmates
And fire out remaining traces
Of your self-esteem
Mainline the deepest secrets
Lick clean the dirty fingers
I am a stranger to you
As you are to yourself

And it's about time
It's about fear
Blue skies bring tears
Don't you want me
As I awake the city sigh
We'll watch the seasons die
Blue skies bring tears

Take me inside your body
Cover me with your soul
To the darkest recess
Is where I wish to go
You are the greatest flower
That I have ever devoured
I ask for nothing given
For nothing in return

Blue skies bring tears
Blue skies bring tears
Blue skies bring tears
Blue skies bring tears
Blue skies bring tears
Blue skies bring tears
Blue skies bring tears
Blue skies bring tears


Age of Innocence


We dismiss the backroads
And ride the streets unafraid
Resort to scraping pain
From our bones unashamed

No more the eye upon you
No more the simple bane

Desolation yes, hesitation no
Desolation yes